Ade, Jimmy1888 and JS123,
Many thanks for your posts.
Found the GA meeting very positive and a little bit humbling.
Left feeling better that i'm trying to sort myself out. feeling of friendship and community,that people are looking out for each other.
However,still couldn't tell my partner where i was-deceiving her yet again,this is destroying me.
I love her so much and still have to tell her the awful truth.
Onwards with day 5.
Have a good day everybody.
Thanks again,
Gazza12
Gazza,
Just read your diary and you are doing great. We are on a long road but with hard work and careful planning we will reap the benefits of a happy and peaceful life.
I wish you well.
Tomso.
Thanks Tomso for your support.
Looking forward to some inner peace and happiness.
The gambling is the one big negative in my life but taking it one day at a time.
Take care and have a good day,
gazza12
morning fella
I am glad to hear you took something away from your first meeting this is a big step,I know walking through the door takes alot of bottle and well done, you are right it is a feelowship and a community were you can get help and advice and in time contribute and give back i believe this is also an important step in recovery. The one thing i take from recovering from this addiction fella is that through my confession as a compulsive gambler i have with honesty not had to lie and decieve to anybody any more, not my family most of all and through my doing this i have gained a massive amount of support from a great deal of people to help me fight this addiction and remain in recovery, the arresting of my compulsion is not a short term goal but a life changing one, and i do believe if i had not confessed all fella i would not be writing this post as i would be back at it and i did honestly think that my confession would end my relationship with my wife and kids and truthfully i could not have been more wrong,as the addiction i think makes only us believe the lies we tell and more than probally most of the people around us knew to some degree or other,so to end fella i wish you well and hope you to find in arresting this terrible addiction also the lying stops because this and the time you get back in your life are i beleive to a greater value than your financial loses.
regards duncs one more step forward not back.
Duncan,
Many thanks for your words of encouragement.
One of the many things that i can't get to grips with is the different person i become. Normally i think of myself as an ok person who is responsible in many aspects of life.
The betrayal of trust and letting the people i love down, in what should be a happy and exciting time for us.
Day 5 has become a disaster
Hi
If you have relapsed there be another day 5 , dust yourself down and start again. Do not think there's one person on here that has not relapsed many times.
Just don't let that slip turn into a gambling frenzy as it will make the journey back do much harder.
If you have not relapsed, then tell us a little more , maybe someone can help.
Don't give up.
Dusty
gazza
I can only agree with dusty you can pick up at your beginings and not mention a woed of your loss fella. You know one thing for a given whatever the problem gambling is simply not an answer!
duncs. stepping forward.
You will find the right time to tell your partner.
And when you will, you could use your diary to show how desperate you are to stop this madness.
GT
Dusty fairy, Duncan and GT
Manyy thanks for your kind words and encouragement.
Thankfully i've not relapsed and am tackling day 6 with renewed spirit and determination.
My partner found out about my addiction and has given me tremendous support and encouragement. There's still alot to talk over but we're dealing with my problem together. She really is a strong,loving, wonderful woman whom i love very much.
i'll update my diary with a few more details on Monday
Have a peaceful weekend and let's fight the fight together!!!
gazza12
Well done Gazza, gotta keep going and as you say we all need to fight the fight together.
Have a great gamble free weekend.
Great that your partner knows now. Women are a lot stronger than you think 🙂 The best part is you have nothing to hide - I can't imagine the burden for people who are unable to share with their partners. You are twice as strong now with her support and I look forward to reading your successes.
It was a very emotional weekend for us all,
a roller-coaster of emotions.
We're trying to move on and stay positive.
We have alot to look forward.
I'm more determined than ever to beat this illness.
Have a good day every body, i'll try as i move on with day 8
gary.
Well done fella on getting past your first week and you have made a massive positive step towards your continuing recovery as js said on sat no more lies and deciept fella you will reap the massive benifits i am sure.
duncs one more step forward never back.
Duncan,
Many thanks for your kind words and support.
Have a good day.
gazza12
Think Aresenal will pip spurs for 3/4 th place?
Staying strong,hope you are too.
gazza12
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