This is it.

Day 4 successfully negotiated. Thought about gambling a few times but no urges to act on those thoughts. In to day 5 and back at work this morning. Soon be the end of the first week. Can't wait to get these numbers up and see the improvement in my life.

Hoping as I post this you've completed your first full week gamble free.

Matt

Ok, I have just spanked £700 of my wages, I will now not be able to pay all bills this month and I feel sick to my stomach about how I am going to get out of this mess as I have completely exhausted all borrowing options available. I am fed up, have been eating c**P over the last few months as this has gotten out of hand and everything has just nosedived. I want to quit now, I want to move forward with my life. I want to do people proud and I am now seeing that doing this I can't achieve my goals. At work, I barely do anything as I just constantly check odd prices / watch games. No more. I have sworn on my families lives that I will never ever give my money to another gambling company again. I will be even more of a loser than even I imagined if I f**k this up. I have put blocks in place and self excluded where necessary but I despise gambling now and have been growing that way for a while as it in destroying everything that I have. NO MORE. Sorry for the reant to whoever reads this but I'm done. Truly miserable and have hit the bottom. Only way is up.

Hi Jason

First up I am sorry to hear you relapsed. But There is no better place to start than day one. Every day abstained is a day richer financially and mentally. Draw a line now, don't look back and try chase the losses, what's done is done and can be repaired. If your struggling with debt, contact Payplan they can help get some creditiors off your back. Speak with your missus if you feel you cannot trust yourself with the finances for now.

I suggest you go get some councelling, finding the reasons we gamble (and there will always be one) is a key. Don't beat yourself up, recognise your illness and use this rock bottom moment to build a solid foundation for the rest of your life.

Good luck.

Matt

Thanks Matt,

I have had a proper think about this and want to do it. I have relinquished my bank card, self excluded from every online bookmaker. Will take this slow to begin with and look into the reasons as I go. Full abstinence though and today is day one. Here we go. . . This is going to be the biggest challenge of my life to date.