This time its for Real

Loving the positivity! Yeah I think we’re all better to be around when we’re not gambling.I found myself to almost be bipolar depending on the spin of a stupid wheel.If things went well then I was a joy to be around cracking jokes splashing the cash however once the wheel turned against me I was grumpy and almost sulk child like spending time figuring how I was going to cover losses.I have a fantastic family,a good job,brilliant mates etc but yet I was tempted to ruin that but playing a stupid game that long term I possibly can’t win! Sounds insane when you type it! Anyway I’m going to implement a few changes and see where it takes me. Keep up the gf days don’t let me down lol check in soon 🙂

Hey newbeginning
Wow, your post is like a mirror image man, winning cash getting that free supper, smug satisfied feeling on a high its almost chemical, winning (gambling) is like an untoxic heroin, then the loss comes and guts you barbarically! And the worse thing apart from the desperation of getting your loss back, is the fact that everywhere you look its there, tv, internet, billboards, shops, friends its even in your sleep there's literally no escape! The only way to stop the hunger is starvation no matter how hungry you get until the hunger pains go and every time you smell the feast... fight!
Its a horrid wicked thing having this addiction but keep fighting it and the longer you do the rewards pour from heaven!

Anyways my 69th day gamble free came today rewarding me with my youngest daughters first steps which was AMAZING so so happy and to put the chocolate chips in my cookie my provisional licence arrived also :):):):):)

Life is feeling great after all this time gamble free, family life, work life, social life, financial life are all thriving!

Don't get me wrong, i've been this far before more than once which i'm aware of but this time its for real!
The gambling demon that possessed me is locked, chained and buried deep away from harms reach and my army of blockers watch over him.

31 days till triple digits

Here i come.

Day 70 Gf

Gamstop Gamstop Gamstop ......... Gamstop and just incase you didn't know..........
#Gamstop#

76 Days GF 😀

Wow, what a journey I've been on during these, from being the worst time of my life (not wanting to go on) to feeling better than i can remember, here i am.

Watching my kids playing together, my youngest toddling around is just priceless, to think i was willing to miss out on this and instead them be in despair without there daddy, truly heart braking, i just can't get my head round it now it's clear, never the less i'm just so happy i found the strength because i realise now just how lucky i am.

I have my first driving lesson tomorrow and really excited bit belated but better late than never!

Just before i rang the bank regarding a letter from lloyds priority team, basically they had made an error and my credit card arranged payment had commenced even though i agreed not to go ahead, the gentleman i spoke too basically assured me that because it was an error by them i would be refunded interest of the month of June which is basically enough to take my family out for the day (remember i spoke about rewards for not gambling 😉 ) and should my credit score be damaged they would amend!

How nice it was replying to his question of me being financially stable, i can still remember the phone call 2/3 month prior where i had just relapsed, the pain the shame the darkness urgh it makes me feel sick,
This phone call has put the cherry on my week and the more i don't gamble the happier i get!

I'm still aware it's early days but am still proud of my self!

76 days gamble free even though i have access to a lot of cash which previously i would attempt to chase my loss is a big step in this journey, recovery, and i'm just over the moon!

So.... hopefully a nice sunny day tomorrow and maybe go to the coast after my driving lesson courtesy of the bank :):):) and not gambling!

Signing off day 76 yeee haaa.

86 days GF

Well had 1st driving lesson over the weekend woop woop, i've not had any urges since day 50 and honestly setting my mind to something new is really helping that matter.

I'm really appreciating every single thing each day contains, and when i think about gambling times i just wana kick myself, the pain and misery which it has caused, why i kept on doing it, so so sad i did because i've done nothing but cause pain and misery not only for myself but all my family too.

Well no more!! 100 GF days is round the corner and I'm gona make it!

I had 36 monthly repayments as quoted in earlier posts, after the 1st of Aug i will have 34, and time has flew! I feel it won't be long until i have my last payment!

To everyone struggling to beat this awful habit, please please believe me when i say life is sooo much better without Gambling, accept the loss, forget about what could have been or what you should have done, move on and realise we are here to survive and not put our means on a green table, in a flashy machine or what ever form it may be, we use our means too make it in life and enjoy it!

One persons win is another's loss

The person who wins steps in a very sticky web and will eventually lose, the cycle repeats

That's the nature of the beast

The fat cats are licking there lips with every winner they see!

There's a big beautiful life for the taking and all us gamblers need to do is change our title 'Gambler' to that which will make ourselves smile at the end of every day!

Family man has a much better ring to me than Gambler 🙂

On to day 100!! That day will be my next post

Very best of wishes.