This time next year we'll be millionaires!!!!?

All the best buddy. I've just started again on day 1 also, so hopefully we can encourage each other.

Good luck guys.

Onepoundmore

Welcome to the forum.

Well done for admitting to your shortcomings.

The compulsion to gamble is seen as a progressive addiction,the stakes and losses raised in equal measure.

When you write of having a blowout,it takes me back to my own gambling life, each episode win or lose ended the same way,the walk of shame from the bookies(my form of gambling) the fobt taken all I could afford and some, the promise to never do it again.

I think there are two monkeys on my back.

The gambling one,a huge dominating one,aggressive and overpowering,a bully if you like,eggs you on to make that luck today,goads you into that bet,uses emotions good and bad to tempt you back.

Then there is the little monkey,

He comes out to console you when you lose again,he has a rational thinking,is a decent bloke,works hard,wants a life.

The big monkey used to stamp all over the little one,beat it up everytime it could find the opportunity.

Then I found recovery,found out the little monkey has a great left hook!!

today when the urge to do my boll##ocks come along,that big monkey creeps up my back

The little rational one is ready fist clenched.

The same is on offer for you.

It is your choice to take it.

I hope this amazing forum helps you make the right choice for you.

Again well done for admitting your gambling is out of your control.

This is a huge step

Duncs stepping forward never back

Day2

Nought special for me 2 days without gambling I can go weeks without doin it but sooner or later can't help myself ,generally don't set out to gamble I just stumble across it and think il just have a few quid like Sunday just gone went to get some clothes for holiday and ended up in bookies!! don't get me wrong I'm constantly looking at football fixtures and making bets up in my own head ( which always seem to come in when there's no money involved) I go to bed regularly fantasising about the big mother of all winning bets payday , think there's not much difference when I'm gambling to dreaming , it all seems surreal until u walking out door realising how much money uve just done , working out how many shifts at work your gonna be doin for nought. With me when I go on 1 , my first feelings are excitement ,on a real high , then when you've lost it it's disbelieve , gutted ,and after a few hours I'm kind of relieved I've done it now I can put it right , then the next few days I'm still on a downer then generally move on , I generally get caught out goin to buy somthing I think if I can just win x amount of s I can buy it for nothing when the true fact is it generally costs me loads more ,never told none of me mates ,family known I've had issues in past but unaware at moment don't really feel like telling them to be honest even though they are the best family u could ever ask for and would do ought for me , gonna try and sort this mess out myself!!!!???

get self excluding mate for when those urges come do whatever it takes , build up a deffence so when that urge comes you can withstand it , ask someone you trust to look after your hard earned money , keep it safe from that horrible addiction . thanks simon we really can live wthout gambling