Hello, it's been a long while since I've posted on here, a lot of new faces...so frustrated with myself that I'm back to square one had been doing really well had got past the year mark with both landbased and online gambling until last year when something happened that totally devastated me and I turned back to gambling I wanted to escape from the real world so for the last year on and off I've been denying how much of a problem it is for me to gamble again!!!!!!...need to find another way of dealing with things
Feeling totally deflated, defeated I give up!!!! Never thought I'd allow myself to get back down to this position
today is day 2 and I've spent the morning excluding from as many online sites as I possibly can for 5 years, have got a blocker on laptop but ended up gambling on phone on tablet at least excluding from sites will stop that too now
Roll on day 3, hope your all doing well
Jinx
I really need to feel accountable so going to write this on my diary so when I read it back later so I can see where I am/was Monday was payday and spent most of it gambling ran the risk of losing it all if I hadn't of stopped, anxiety took over felt totally sick and numb and if I hadn't of excluded today I know I would of gambled the rest to chase what I'd already lost feel bad enough
Day 3, been a long day I'm totally shattered but been busy getting ready for daughters birthday tomorrow.....busy is good at least for today 🙂
So glad I chose to exclude for the total 5 years, When I've tried before to stop gambling I excluded for the least amount of time (reckon in my mind it was like promising myself I can gamble again in 6 months, an excuse, something to look forward to I guess!!!!) not this time no excuses not leaving any door open!!!
Jinx xxx
It will be a week tomorrow 🙂 not been too bad really I'm so happy to have self excluded for 5 years has taken the pressure off and can now look forward to Christmas with my family xxx
No excuses anymore unless I make the changes I need to things will always be the same my children and I deserve better x
great start jinx
be kind to yourself and keep safe
well done tri
Thanks triangle hope your doing ok xx
Day 16 today hadn't really been counting but when I logged in had entered my last gambled date so have a day count on profile now, Christmas has been ok kids enjoyed it which is all that matters
Roll on the next week
Jinx
Happy new year everyone hope this year we can achieve what we want to and be gamble free....it can be done just do it one day at a time...be strong and things will improve just got to reach out and grab your life back
Jinx
Back with a vengence feel lost totally sunk day 1 again but rock bottom feels so s**t
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