Just started a new job at the beginning of March and you’d think that would have been enough incentive for me to stop this cycle of gambling misery? Nope.
If anything, I hit rock bottom last week after having the biggest high with my best win ever mid March, thinking my life is changing with a better job and more money. I went and lost the lot and more on top. I kept depositing more and more and I’ve left myself in such a bad position for April that I just can’t do this again.
Last week was the big downer, because if I’d stopped after my big win, I’d be in a such healthy financial position.
I gambled again online over the weekend. Friday night I lost more money. Last night I broke even and just decided that’s it. I hadn’t even been paid or paid my rent. What am I doing? I’m hoping day by day the urges will get better. I might need a lot of help and inspiration. Just bought Allen Carr’s book which should arrive tomorrow. Will get reading that straight away.
Also applied to Gamstop on Friday so hopefully I’ll get confirmation of that soon and be excluded for 6 months online.
Really feel I need this diary to keep track of things. Fingers crossed.
All the best AJ. Why only 6 months on Gamstop?
Thank you.
My thinking is, if I can do 6 months without online gambling, then hopefully that’ll be enough time without the urges to enable me to control it myself.
If I can stop gambling when I’m not banned, it will show me I’m definitely done with it and in a new chapter of my life. Of course, if after 6 months I’m still getting tempted I’ll ban myself again.
No, 6 months is not enough. You need to close all open gambling windows.
Once the gambling seed has been sown into one's body and mind, it is incredibly hard to get rid of it or even control it.
Each to their own, just my opinion here. This is coming from someone who has spent 40 years of their life gambling.
NT
Still disgusted by gambling and the gambling industry.
Haven’t even thought about logging in to an online betting website today, for the first time in ages. Whenever betting adverts have been coming on the TV, I’ve been saying ‘What a load of s**t’ or something similar. Still haven’t had confirmation from GamStop.
On Wednesday night I was a seriously broken man. I can tell you now I’m very ready to break this curse.
I would say ban yourself for as long as possible. It only. Takes minutes of weakness as I found a couple of nights ago when I relapsed. I don't doubt that you can do this and wanting to is of course the biggest thing so you're making the best start.
I agree - ban for 5 years - i know I will be a gambler for the rest of my life even I may not gamble it will be there within me . I have tried to self exclude over the 12 years but a complete ban is the way forward for me
You should have excluded for 5 years if you are committed to stop.6 months means you want to gamble again.harsh but that's a big mistake mate
Agree with holycrosser 1000000%!!!!
Still no gambling in April so far.
Oh ye of little faith. Thou underestimate my character.
Just to give some idea, I was able to quit smoking instantly and haven’t touched a cigarette in 3 years or even thought about it.
I also deleted my online dating accounts and blocked every girl I was talking to on WhatsApp just before I decided to quit gambling at the end of March, 2019. Casual s*x is another addiction I have pledged to stop as I realised all these negative things were affecting my mood, going hand in hand. I’m getting text messages asking why I blocked them. No response from me. I am putting me first for once and have to be strong again with the focus entirely on myself. Call it my isolated recovery in order to get my mental strength and self respect back.
So far, so good. Positive thinking. Better days ahead. And I feel so much happier at work already. I will not slide. Once I set my mind on doing something I become obsessed at winning. Only this time I’ll be winning in the right way 🙂
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