Today is day zero

Hi there you are more resilient than you think you can and will reset and have a good life once more

  Take yourself back to when you were happiest and start from there and please post here every day as a work in progress  

 I had my pay transferred to a close family member and all bills etc were debits only got the minimum living amount daily actually got rid of all money cards and closed credit lines

  keep talking breathe deeply and eat the best you can get out and about we have got you

@i7r9twun1f thank you for the kind words and ideas & well done 👏

Day one done. No access to gambling anymore as the last website i had access to blocked me for attempting chargeback via my bank. 

Glad im blocked but stressed about how I'm going to get money to pay bills due next week. 

Day 2 over. Ups and downs all day.

Day 3. Longest I've gone without gambling in months.

Going OK but I have no money and don't seem to have access. The real test will be when I get paid. Still stressed about debt. Feels good not trying to get money to gamble. Also feels good not thinking my solution will be solved by gambling when I know its a lie.

Keep going. You’re doing great. You will soon be paid and pay off debts and start a fresh. Day 1 again for me. I’ve had enough it’s making me ill. 

It's been 7 days today. If I still had access I might have played today due to the financial stress I'm in. I need a certain amount of money by 4th October or I'm defaulting on a loan for the first time and without gambling there's no way I'm getting that money. I should be pleased of my 7 day gamble free but its due to the debt I feel low now my credit is ruined for 6 years. I feel like I'm gonna be punished for gambling for the next 10 years or so.

@ash78 thanks I needed this today. Also the reminder of how sick it makes us. I hope you have managed to continue to not gamble since your message.

@elzy92 thank you for being so open. I have not gambled, like a lot of people I should feel really happy although the ‘gamble monster’ is in my head constantly. I know it will be ash in time. I’m dedicated to Me rather than the slots. The anxiety of staying away and how do I pay off debts is very challenging. WE can do this 🙏🤞

Day 18 today. I am proud but at the same time I don't have any money to show for it which sucks. My whole wage goes on paying off gambling debts. The only positive is I feel like my mind is more relaxed and not thinking about when my next game will be. I wish i stopped sooner.

Had to reset my clock as I gambled last month. So what would have been 50 days no gambling.... I am at day 25 again 😊  still proud of myself.

And one thing that I know this time is how ever much time I don't gamble... I am still a out of control gambler. Even 10 years later I remind myself everyday I can never trust myself again. Haven't had much urges but will be financially ruined for another 4/5 years so haven't seen much difference in my life yet.