Thanks Jam.
I am now 7 days gamble free and I feel that, if I am honest with myself, then for the first time since trying to kick the gambling habit that I am properly taking things seriously. I feel it has taken this to move me forwards.
Telling a loved one what I have done
Surrendering access to money
Accepting that I am a compulsive gambler
Taking steps to change my life.
I learnt that the money is not the issue - I used to think it was, but what really is the issue is the relationships I have strained, the low opinion of myself that I have taken, the anger I have demonstrated. It is only by accepting this, that I feel ready to move forwards.
So here we go, it is a week since I last gambled, a week since I broke down and told my wife and a week since she held me and told me that she will help me get rid of this sickness.
Moving forward, tiny steps, but moving forwards...
Woke up this morning feeling very positive - spent the first ten mins in bed while awake thinking about the day, thinking how I am not going to gamble and how I am going to fill my time with other more pleasurable activities. I dropped my son off at school and then had a short walk. Being outside in the sunshine is a lot more pleasurable than being inside a dark bookies,
I had a good weekend, lots of good time with friends and family, not putting myself in positions where I might gamble and not being tempted to do so. Today is day 12.
I have read through the literature I got from GA and am thinking of the one day at a time mantra, I am finding it helpful. I have though through quite a bit about the after affects of my gambling. My relationship with my wife is strained, I need to keep on working at it and trying to prove that I have changed.
It is a long old road, of which I am only a few steps in, but I am determind to get there
Hi Burko, just thought I'd drop you a note as not heard from you in a while, hope all is good mate.
Jam
Hey Jam,
Gamblewise matey, everything is going well. I am now 93 days gamble free and am delighted with that.
I hope that you are doing well x
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