Dave
If it's important to you then it's important to your diary. I do hope you get into a posirive frame of mind. However, don't be too hard on yourself. We are not perfect by a long way and off days are allowed. It shows we are human. Make yourself a cup of tea and a few biscuits and hopefully things will become clearer. If not carry on doing what you're doing and above all don't gamble. easy does it one day at a time.
Day 237
Thanls for advice smiler, I always smile when I see your name!!
Wife is doing my nut in again, I swear she is heading for a nervous breakdown, but not sure how to talk to her about it?? all she says is she wishes she didnt work, but we all wish that, dont we ?
Still not gambled so that is good, I am just off to the airport as I am working in Belguim this week, which is a welcome "Holiday" from the wife!!
Day 240
Just back from working away and the wife seems to have calmed down , which is a welcome change!!
I flew back from Schipol airport, and I could not beleive they have a Casino in the airport!! I just walked past and did not even atempt to go in, but it made me think I would have gone in and most prob missed my flight when I was at my lowest chasing money I would have lost for sure. I landed in London and then took the train home from Paddington, and guess what there is now a bookies in Paddington station!! Again I would have made my way in and lost money for sure, then missed my train, then would have lied to my family to say train delayed etc etc you all know the story. But I am still clean, I have no urge to go back to my old life, if you are just starting out on your journey, please beleive me when I say, it gets easier day by day just stay focused and you can beat it
Day 242
Lovely hot day, and the weekedn is to continue the same, so happy with it!!
Still not gambled, but I had a slight urge today as I drove past an old bookies I used to attend lots, and right next door they have now opened a new 500 pound slots arcade, it looked so inviting (as they always do!!) Thought about it for a split sec then remembered if I did my 242 days would be back to 0 and thought no way, I am not going back there!!
Lets hope the weather stays this way for a long time!
A huge well done on not going into either of those places. If you did do the unthinkable and go in, then there can only be one winner and that's them.
But continue to stay far, far away from them and the only guaranteed winner is...
...YOU!
GT
Day 249
One day away from the big 250!!
Been working abroad this week, so it has been a good week, however there is some news coming out from our integration at work in the next week or so, which may leave me out of a job. In one way it would be good as I would get a big payout for 11 years, but then I would have to find another job, so I am hoping I am ok and will not lose it.
It is funny how things can change so quickly, I am hoping my non gambling will not change so quick!!
Hi dave I've got stuff on tomorrow so will congratulate you on your 250 now! Well done and remeber to hold that bat high and enjoy the moment. Some glove love from the other end as well 🙂
I hope your job news turns out the way you want it. I'm always scared of losing my job. I don't know what I'd do if that happened. Just got to work hard to ensure it doesn't.
Take care
Hope you have a treat lined up for yourself for the big 250!
GT
Day 253
Well day 250 has now passed, cheers for the messages of support guys. I intended to celebrate on sat night, but I was so tired after playing football I ended up falling alseep at 7pm!!! So today i treated myself to a belated KFC to celebrate the day.
Nothing major to report on the gambling front, still going strong and not thinking about it, which is great. My sights are now set for the 300 days so lets hope I make it there without mistake. I have been invited this weekend to a race night in aid of charity, but I made my excuses to get out of it, which none of my mates can understand as they know I used to love a good race night, but it is gambling so its a no go for me.
Still no word yet on my job, I know there is a meeting planned this week for all managers, so hopefully after the meeting I will know some more on if I have a job !!
Keep strong guys, you will all feel better for not gambling I know I do
Day 254
I have realised all my life I have had no focus or goals apart from gambling. Now I have a goal of no debt and a focus of not to gamble life seems to have a whole new meaning.
Still G free
Day 255
just bored with work now, and wish they would let us all know waht is happening, it is a worry I do not want or need at present. Apart from that another day notched up on my non gambling, which is great!!
I could do with a positive at present as all I seem to be doing is dealing with negatives at present, I wish I had the money to go on holiday, I have next week off but no money to go anywhere whihc is cr**!! Hey ho its my mess and I have to sort it, maybe this time next year I will be able to treat my family and go away, yet agin its a reasn to stay gamble free
Day 261
STill not gambled one penny in 261 days!!!!!!!! or just over 37 weeks, not even in my mind anymore.Hopefully I will know by 1st weekof November what the future holds for me at work, once this is out of the way(if it goes my way) I can seriously get on with my life, until the drama comes along!!
As long as you don't gamble, you will soon have some money to go on a well-deserved holiday.
That time WILL come.
Until then, stay very strong, stay very positive and most of all, stay very patient!
GT
Day 273
Not been on for a while as I have been away for the last week. Still not gambled and only when I thought about coming on here today did I think to myself "I could really go to the bookies today and sit and forget the world" but as always now I shake my head, laugh at myself and say no, why waste 273 days so I will not gamble today or ever again. I am nearing the 1 year mark, 1st Feb 2012 is that day, by then I should have had my annual bonus, which will leave me very close to having no unsecured debt, this will be the first time since the age of 16 this would be the case. I worked it out today I would be 900 pounds a month better off without these loan and credit card payments each month. It seems to good to be true, but if I continue this way it will happen. I then only have some debt on my mortgage (and my outstanding mortgage balance, which I am not concerned with) that I will tackle, this may take a few years to pay off, but 273 days ago I thought I would have that for another 25 years!!
know I should not wish my life away, but bring on 2012, as I can just start to see the light at the end of a very dark tunnel, I want to be in that light
Hi Dave
Congratulations on 273 days thats a great acheivement just goes to show what can be acheived in that time.
Its amazing how much clearer everything becomes when we are not gambling I fully intend never to give them a single penny of my money so that in time to come I can put myself in a position of a "normal life"
May I wish you much success as you continue along your road to recovery
Best Wishes
Andrew
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