Day 42 - so proud of myself I managed to walk past the bookies that I used to frequent all the time today and I was not even tempted to walk in!! This is a massive achievement for me and I had to post this it!! Home now with my family so no chance of gambling today!!
Oh Dave, you're such a bloke 😉 I love that you are going to listen if wifey wants to tell you why she's so grumpy but if she's anything like me, she wants you to care enough to ask! I can't figure out if she knows or not but I wonder if you bouncing around with a new found focus is making her fear what has caused it? Women, we don't even understand ourselves @ times so no point trying 😉
Good on you walking by that bookies Dave 🙂 It's a shame we can't bottle these feelings eh! The urges would never win if all we could train our dumb brains to realise that choosing 'No' is far more rewarding!
Congratulations on 6 massive weeks of winning! Keep it up - ODAAT
Thank you ODAAT I agree, women are hard to figure out!! The issue is if I do ask my wife what is wrong, she snaps back with - nothing!!! Day 43 starts, working with someone today, so even if I wanted to gamble I couldn't, then my wife is away all weekend and I will have my kids on my own, so no chance to gamble this weekend either. I am feeling very positive today about life, it's funny how my emotions are up and down so much, it must be part of reclaiming my life back!! Have a great gamble free day people
Day 43 over, and still gamble free. Feeling great today
Day 43 over, and still gamble free. Feeling great today
44 days today Dave,
Well done,
Suzanne xxx
Thank you Suzanne, I have woken up tired today, this is due to my kids getting me up at 5am, after me going to sleep at 1am!!! Wish my wife was here, then I could make her get up and deal with them!! Busy two days ahead, fishing with my boys today then taking them to watch a footy match tomorrow, so nice and busy with no time to gamble. I am so focused again, it's scary as what worries me is how i can just switch my emotions on and off like this. This is what happened last time, but I for some reason switched my emotion back to gamble mode, this must not happen again. My next target is 70 days or ten weeks, this is 26 days away and I will hit it. Have a gamble free weekend all
Day 46 begins, I am happy to report that days 44 and 45 wee gamble free. Today I am working from home and I am so tired, even if I wanted to gamble I could not !! I am hoping to get some sleep this afternoon if possible, but we will see. I am still 100% focused and will remain this way, it's so much of a better life not having this around my neck
Day 46 done and still gamble free. Nothing to report urges are less and less, but from experience I know this can change like the wind. Stay positive and keep focused is the way forward
Day 47 - has passed well without any urges to gamble at all. Payday is Friday and I still have approx £200 in the bank, normally I am using my credit card by now to survive as I am at my overdraft limit. What ever money I have will be used to pay off more the the minimum amount off of one of my credit cards. If I can keep going then hopefully by the end of this year my credit cards will be paid off, I will still have loans but I am not worried about them at the moment, it's the interest on the credit cards that is killing me!! I am with my family for the rest of today so no chance to gamble even if I wanted to. Tomorrow is a very busy day, so I should be able to one step closer to 50 days. Have a good night all and stay away from any form of gambling, it's just not worth it
Day 48- apart from my wife being in one horrible mood and shouting at me as soon as I walked in the door, the day has been good!! As I said before in the past it could, and most prob would have been a trigger. Now instead of running away I tell her to shut up, and not be so horrible, which goes down like a lead balloon !!! I wish she could control her moods, but then I wish I could permentally stop gambling . Oh well I have to focus on my addiction, and just roll with her emotions!! Have a great night all
Day 49 - Has started badly, as a family memeber has sadly passed away last night. He was old, but even still it really hits you hard. It has made me think even more about the chioces I have made in the past. Life is short, and you only get one. Why have I spent my days wasting money and time in these places ? Knowing I was never going to gain anything apart from stress and regret. I need to keep away from gambling, and start planning my future, i need to have savings, so if I want to take my family somewhere, we can do it without the worry of affording it.
I croed today for the first time in a long time, and I could cry again sat here now. The tears were for the loss of a family memeber, but also the tears were du eto my addiction also. I kept thinking about it over and over again, in amongst the thoughts of the loss. I have to continue to not gamble, if i want to lead a normal life.
Enjoy your gamble free day guys, I know I will try too
Sorry for your loss 🙁
Try not to dwell too much on past choices, they are gone & can't be changed! 7 weeks in...Recovery is your future now, only you can throw it away! You are doing great & hopefully your wife stops being a grump soon!
Keep fighting - ODAAT
Day 50 - thank you ODAAT for the post, it always makes me feel good when people take the time to say nice things. So I have hit the half century mark, which is a milestone. It also coincides with payday, which is also great. I'm sat here thinking how I will feel at 100 days or 200 days, but 70 days or 10 weeks is my next target, and I am confident I will smash it. Have a great day all
Great work on the 1st half century 🙂
Every day not gambling feels great, even the bad ones because we all know how hard we work @ being gamble free!
Stay on guard & be confident, you can do this - ODAAT
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