Thanks guys, I am really feeling the love on here today!!! Well day 50 passed without a thought of gambling, and I had a little bit of luck today when I was given some old stuff at work that could be worth selling, just eBay it and it was all worth around £1000!! If I can sell it, then I can pay this off a credit card, which would be happy days. I also bit the bullet today and decided to look at my credit score, as this gives me another incentive to stop. My score was 568, which is very poor. I am not surprised by this, and I will in time start seeing this improve if I stay away from gambling. Prior to my stumble it was 980, which put me in the highest bracket they have, I want this again
Day 51 - tonight is a big test for me, wish me luck. Apart from this test tonight, the day has passed with ease. Have good sat night everyone
Day 52 - you're my past last nights test, and resisted the fruit machines , I was on my own but didn't play them. I am with my wife now until Tuesday In France so no chance to gamble, which is great. The days are getting easier, with less thoughts of Fobt and casinos etc, long may this continue. Have a great day all
Day 53 and 54 - done and not a gamble in sight. Feeling good and happy right now, let's hope this remains the same forever!! Still focused on hitting my next target of 10 weeks or 70 days, which hopefully I will be able to hit with ease. It's just nice not to have the burden of gambling around my neck at the moment, and also not having the lies and having to cover my tracks, borrow money etc etc, you all know these feelings. Sleep tight
Day 55 - no urges today at all, and until now not even thought about gambling. I hope it stays this way, it makes life so much easier
Day 56 - again no urges today and just kept myself busy with work. Just checked my credit card balances, and I have credit on all of them for the first time in ages as I have made two payments above the minimum! I am starting to see the effects of stopping at last!! It's a long journey to be debt free, but I know I can do it. Have a great Non gambling night all
Day 57 - apart from the wife doing my head in, it's been a good day gamble free. No urges again, and lots planned for the weekend so no time to think about it!!
Days 58 & 59 done. Nothing major to report, no real urges on either day. I am working away until Thursday, so it will be a test this week, but I have many colleagues with me so I should have no time to gamble, even if I wanted to. Only 11 days until my 10 week target is met!!
Day 63 - I have just realised that I have gone the whole of May and June gamble free! It's amazing how qyuick the days have past. I am still 100% focused on not gambling, and I have set another goal for myself which is to move house in 2017, but to do this I have to pay my debts off. I am currently paying back £1200 per month, luckily I am able to be able to do this, but imagine if it was paying off a mortgage instead of debt........
Have a great day all
Day 63 over!!!
i have just read day 63 of my last diary, very interesting as my mind is thinking the same as back then, this time around. The strange thing is I don't really know myself, but it's showing my mind is working the same, so maybe I do knowyself,,,,,
I'm not quite sure what you are saying but it sounds like you are setting yourself up to fail! Just because your mind is the same, doesn't mean your future has to be! It doesn't always feel like it but we have the power to control our recovery & steer it if it ventures off course! I use other people's recovery to warn me of pitfalls & prepare me for testing times...What better than learning from your own mistakes! Keep an eye on that diary buddy & have contingencies for the bumps that will come!
That house move sounds exciting & 2 years will fly by. If you go back to gambling now, you will look back in 2017 with huge regrets of where you should be!
You may be following similar patterns to last time but you are not the same person! You can do this - ODAAT
Day 66 over - thank you ODAAT. Busy weekend no gambling and a few steps closer to 10 week mark. I will not fail this time, I am too strong. Have a great week all
Day 67 - not really had any thoughts today as been busy with work. I have stopped listening to my usual radio station as well talk sport as I am finding every min there is a bookies on or an advert for one, I don't need reminding of these horrible companies!! Tonight will be early to bed as the festivities of the weekend have most def caught up with me. I hope I can stay in this frame of mind forever now, I really need too. Life is so much a happier clearer place without the gambling hanging around my neck. Stay bet free guys
Day 68 done Day 69 begins - still gamble free, which is great. I am now only 1 day away from 10 weeks!! It's amazing how fast time goes, before I know it it will be a year hopefully! By then I should have paid off all my credit cards, these are what cause me most concern, I can deal with the loans but the interest on credit cards annoys me. Must stay focused
Day 70 or 10 weeks done I am very happy to report that I am now 10 weeks gamble free!!! Next target is 100 days, and I know I will do it
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