Was ВЈ50k, now £14k in debt May 1st 2015 day one

Day 27 is over!

Apart from seeing silly amounts of adverts on TV for betting, bingo etc I have had no urges today to gambe, I actually think this maybe the first day I have done without the urge, so this is great news, but I need to be aware of this and not lose focus and let the little gambling devil creep up on me, when I least expect it

Day 28 done

Good night and sleep tight

Day 29 over and complete with no gamble!!

I have had an interesting day today, as I needed new tyres on my car and typically I would drop the car off and go to local bookies and spend 2 hours gambling my money away. Instead I waited for 2 hours in the waiting room in the cold! and just read a paper (How relaxing was this!!!) its amazing that simple things like reading and music, can fill your time and be extremly relaxing.

I am nearly at the 30 day mark, and this is a remarkable acievement for me, I have gone the whole of feb now and my next target is to do the whole of march (and the rest of my life) but small steps to start with.

Good night all

30 days done

It feels great to hit the 30 day mark, and to celebrate I actually went out for two pints with a mate (going for a drink with a mate was unheard of 30 days ago, as money or lack of would always make me make an excuse)

So heres to the next 30 days, FU#K YOU bookies, casino and whatever else I have wasted my money over the years, I am over you and i never want you back in my life (beer talking I think!!!)

Stay gamble free all!!

Hiya Dave,

Just want to say congrats in hitting your 30 day mark 🙂

Best Wishes Del

Thanks for the support Del, its nice to have these remarks!!

I have come on here this morning to tell a little story that has just popped into my head. I am working from home today (I work from home one day a week) and when I was gambling this was my gamble day. Due to the fact I had self excluded myself from all local casinos, I would on the 1st home work day after payday (this would be today) drive 3 hours to Swansea to visit Aspers casino (this up until Feb 1st was the only casino I could go into in the UK) and spend all day gambling my money away (sometimes stay untill 4am after geting there at 12 midday!!!) What a complete idiot I had become, driving 3 hours to spend a thousands pounds plus!!! then a nice 3 hour drive home, in the middle of the night shouting and being angry at myself for being such an idiot!! I had even thought about ending it all on some of these drives home, just to get rid of the pain. But as you all know, we addicts are very good at lieing and getting more money from all who are near us, just to survive and this is what I would do.

Anyway I am sat here in my house on day 31, and I am not able to go to this casino as I have self excluded myself!! also I have no interest in driving for 3 hours. I have also just looked at my bank account online, and I still have money!! this is such a great feeling (Although really its not my money as I owe so much!!!)

I will be back on later to hopefully close day 31 as a success!!

Congratulations Dave, and thank you for your post on my diary, I thought i'd read through yours and it's very pleasing to see how well you're doing.

Your last comment about the money "not being yours" is completely irrelevant, the money IS yours, and it's money you WOULDN'T have should you have continued gambling.

There are many stresses in life, and having the massive stress of money problems is not one you need, and you're going the right way about getting rid of it. Seriously, congratulations.

Day 31 over!!

No gambling today, and very little urges to gamble which was really good. As the days are passing without a doubt it is getting easier to not gamble. It also gets me thinking that the guy who told me it takes 21 days to break a habit was correct, as before my life revolved around getting up in the morning sourcing money, then making time to gamble, without a doubt it was a habit. Now my days are filled with working hard, playing with kids and relaxing!! something I had forgotton to do in past (You gamblers out there know what I am talking about) as I thought gambling was my way to relaxx, looking back how ffffing wrong was I. Look at anyone in a casino, bookies etc and they are far from relaxed, and the reason is they are all chasing the lost money that overtime they have lost.

Non gambling, if only for 31 days is great and I want to stay in this frame of mind forever, I do not want to ever fill as low as I did 31 days ago.

Hiya Dave,

31 days is a massive acheivement. I really relate to what you say about feeling how you did 31 days ago. I'd never want to go back to those days either. The more distance you get from your last gamble, the clearer things become..I'm still learning.

Keep up the good work!

Best Wishes Del x

Hi Dave,

Well done - 10 days past the '21' and still going strong.You're right about really relaxing again. I thought roulette was my 'escape' too but know now that that's the last thing it was - it makes you angry,miserable and VERY skint!

Thanks for your kind words earlier - sadly beloved cat was very, very sick and we did the kindest thing tonight and he's off to the great cat home in the sky - will have to do a 'Shirley Valentine' now and talk to the walls when everyone else is out!

Have a great weekend

Kay x

Day 34 done!

I have been on a weekend away with my best mate to Amsterdam, it was a really great weekend with lots of sight seeing! Very tired now though , but I did not gamble so it was even better.

It's a new week agian tomorrow, and I am Hoping I will be into 40 days + very soon!

Keep it going guys it's such a better life

Thanks for the post on my diary Dave. Your going well mate. Keeping oneself busy and having barriers in place is the key, just think how many more holidays you could go on if you manage to quit gambling for good

Anothner day bites the dust with no gamble!

I have just kept myself busy with work, and I again have not thought of gambling. I must stay strong and focused and remember how low and how depressed I felt when I gambled everyday, as those feelings were the reason I had to stop, or I am sure I would either end up single or in an early grave.

Keep going my gamecare buddys

Day 36 over

Today has been easy as I have been in bed all day ill, so no thoughts of gambling just of feeling extremley ill!

Hopefully feel better soon, and then the fight will continue again

hey dave,

thanx for your post in my diary...

arent we doing well?? feels good doesnt it

take care, lets make it 2 months now

jen

xx