day 63 over
Been working away in the north east today, had loads of time on my hands and some money. My hotel was next door to a casino (self excluded from there) so could not if I wante dto gamble. Walked 5 mins down the rd anothner casino (self excluded) then into town centre and in the space of a mile I must have seen 15 bookies, all with offers of deposit 10 pounds and we wll match it etc etc. Anyway I had a quick look through the window of one of them, had a split sec thought of going in, then thought why would I go back to that horrible place I was in 64 days ago??? I have changed its offical, I now understand the value of money, and relaise how unhappy gambling makes you
Day 64 & 65 done
I have to say it is getting easier and easier, and I am so happy now and so relaxed compared to before. I do feel like a different person.
I am a true believer in Karma, and since I have decided to quit my life of gambling, All my credit cards have written to me to say once I have paid them off, then i will not be able to use them again, this is great news, as if i do buckle I will have no means to cash, which is great !!!!!!
Bring on the 10 week mark
well done dave... esp with your strength while away!! just seeing the amount of bookies that there are should make us all realise they obviousely make a mint!! care of us!!
keep strong
take care
jen
xx
Day 66 over!
Nothing to report apart from the radio I was listening today.
A well known sports station had a guy called Peter Kay from the sporting chance clinic talking about addiction (gambling, Alcolhal etc) for an interveiw. It lasted about 30 mins, and then Keys and Gray laughed as they handed over to a betting company for odds update on Grand national !! Crazy how they can invest 30 mins to talk about addiction and then go stright to a betting company. This is why I have decided to not listen to this station anymore, as every 5 mins they have a different betting company on telling us what bets we can place, it snot good for someone as weak as me!!
rant over
Day 67 done and 68 is starting
Grand national weekend, I blame the grand national (and my parents) for my addiction to gambling. When I was a kid my parents allowed me to gamble on the national, little did I know this would go on to huant me in later life. I always seemed to win when I was a kid, this obviously triggered something in my head to put me where I am today. So today will be the 1st national that I will not bet on since I can remember, I will have to make excuses at footy toay not to buy a horse on the sweepstake, and when they all start talking about it I will walk away. Today is a big test for me for sure, but I know I will win, gambling you suck!!
70 days or the big 10 week target completed!!!!!!
Long live non gambling
77 Days and counting!! 11 weeks!!
Been away for a week and just got back, not had any urges to gamble, and feel great about it
Day 78 and 79 compleated
nearing the 100 day mark, and looking backbiting just cant beleive I ever found the time or money to gamble!!! If u are just starting your journey and are reading this, then I am proof you can do this and also it does get easier. Like have said all along it takes 21 days to break a habit once you beat your habit of gambling you can then battle the addiction.
Keep Ginger guys we will win
Days 80 and 81 sorted!!
Not been thinking too much about gambling or this website. I am finding it easier by the day, and the 100 day mark is close now!! May 11th is the 100th day, after this I will set my sights on 20 weeks or 140 days. I must still stay aware that I may buckle, and let the demons take over my head again, but I hope this never happens. I now have the focus to stop stronger then ever before, I have really enjoyed the last 81 days of my life, any better then any visit I ever had to a casino or a bookies and walking out with a big win. Thinking back though, the only reason I ever left onr of these places with a big win was due to having to leave (wife calling me, or place shutting etc) The amount of times I was 2 - 3 grand up and then lost the lot in the same day is crazy. Also the amount of timesI would win say 500 pound in the first ten mins and think this was playing money, not a win and leave its soooooo crazy. Anyway hopefully this part of my life is over now and I will never ever again waste my time and money doing this.
You only get one life and you should live it, not waste it gambling.
Dave,
You know the score ive just left ******.com after blowing all my remaining money for the month - again and i find myself on this site.
Great story and its just like staring into a mirror listening to myself speak hearing you! When i am doing it i think i am the only one.
Got to try and do this and reading posts like yours will hopefully help
all the best with it.
Day 84 done 85 just starting
thanks for post a38 it's always nice when people post, as it feels like people are there supporting u.
Nothing to report really, just to say really enjoying the time off and the sunshine. The days now pass easy, and gambling could not be further from my mind right now.
I will try and never go back to my old ways, I can see light at the end of my mountin of debt tunnel, it will take years but it will be paid off one day, and that day I will celebrate!
Dave - great diary i read it all this morning after you posted on mine! You have the same determination i have at the moment but you have managed to maintain it and it still seems asstrong as day1.
This is the kind of inspiration i need to continue on this road and beat off the demons whenever they come calling. I too am dreaming about gambling and the roulette machine over and over again. 5 was my big number and i dream of it coming in over and over again. funny i never remember dreaming about it when i was doing it...
I love the ferris bueller quote as well. That quote sticks in my head for some reason and always have. Very true and i plan to do much more of it than i have done for the past 10 years.
Also bang on with you about the FOBTs. Something needs to be done and government attention is needed now. these things are bringing people to their knees and contributing to social and domestic problems up and down the country. It was only once id installed gamblock on my pc last time that i started playing them in a big way and it was hell. Id go in with £20 - lose it, march to the cashpoint, get £100 out and go back in - lose it in seconds, march straight back to the cashpoint and get £200 out and march back and on to the same machine.......you know the rest. One day i lost £1300 in about 30mins. I cannot and WILL NOT ever go back to that life.
Anyway this has been a complete ramble but excellent news mate. 85 days is a truly great effort but just remember me and day 1 and keep that guard up like never before.
I will keep a check on your progress.
day 85 over
what a great day, 25 degree heat, went for a picnic with all my family and some friends and a nice long walk. Then back to my friends house for a BBQ. All of this cost nothing, yet it was so relaxing, enjoyable i want everyday to be like today. No thoughts of wasting any money on you know what today, and hopefully never agian!!
Like the song says "the best things in life are free" its so true, spending time with your family, running around with your kids in a feild etc etc who actually needs bookies , casinos ????
Exactly right Dave. I went down the beach yesterday with a load of pals and had the best time ever for about £10 for Beer and BBQ!!
Last week i would have said i was busy and couldnt go and would have been at home, on my own gambling on the football/snooker/whatever else was on and losing hundreds and going to bed depressed. Instead i went to bed a bit drunk and sunburnt but having had the best day in ages. What a weekend it was.
Anyway happy day 86 mate. 2 weeks away from that century. think about it like a batsman approaching his 100 and play carefully and dont get complacent. The field might come in and you might get some sledging from behind the stumps but just ignore it, stay strong and you will soon be able to hold your bat aloft and kiss the turf.
what the hell am i talking about. Can you tell yet i am cricket obsessed??!!
Hiya Dave,
Just calling in to congrulate you on day 86- Fantastic!
Delgirl xo
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