What a day!

Hey Irene 🙂

Once again well done!

Not all days need to be exciting! A calm, urge free day sounds just lovely 🙂

Stubbsy x

Hi Irene,

Just popping in 2 say I hope u r ok and staying strong 🙂

I hope 2 catch up with u really soon, I enjoy our chats 🙂

Have a gr8 nite xxxx

Again, thanks for the continued support.

Day 113

Another rubbish start to the week- but I'm refusing to let it get me down. Kinda got caught in that trap last week.

Haircut this evening, so that's perked me up 🙂

Out tomorrow evening for coffee with my bud- looking forward to a gossip.

Trying again with the cigs- not easy but needs must.

Waiting for outome of insurance complaint- flooded boxing day by neighbour and insurers expect me to pay £100 excess (she paid exactly zero excess, got her damage fixed promptly!!!!). I've still got damage several weeks later- not happy!

Still awaiting paperwork from CAB to get payment plan sorted.

Everything seems to be taking so long...............patience is not a virtue I have in abundance!

Hi Irene

Just try to take it all in your (long, very long big stride) Irene. I know things like this can be a huge pain in the a--- but its not worth getting frustrated about, especially insurance issues!!!

Take care and well done again in your continued abstinance.

Feb.x

Hi Irene,

There are so many things that are sent to try us and unfortunatly us compulsive gamblers are not blessed with patience, its something i try and practice everyday and when i get frustrated i turn to the serentity prayer,

Grant me the serenity

to accept the things i can not change

courage to change the things i can

and the wisdom to know the difference.

Im sure its frustrating for you and hope its resolved soon but breath deep and keep going.

Take care

Blondie x

Well not sounding like a good day over there and if your like me ya just expect it on a monday. Lol

Yeah kinda sounds like bulls-hit will the hundred. Was no fault of your own and who ever lives upstairs should be flipping the bill for that one. Think ild argue that one a bit further.

Sounds like ya got a few goodies going for ya this week and hope the rest of it is much better.

Thanks for replies friends x

Day 114

A beautiful day-one of those crisp, fresh sunshiney ones 🙂

Been awake since silly time, had paddy out before sunrise. The birdsong was amazing. Anyhow, just killing time before I start-cant expect everyone to be insomniac!

Good day ahead!

Just had a quick glance through (there are 80 pages!) and just want to say well done

Hope i can match your number of days! 🙂

Thanks Joe! hard to believe there are 80pages full of my thoughts-scarey! Also tho its 80 pages of supportive notes from others which have got me through this.

Day 114

Had a lovely evening out with pal-a real chuckly night! Luckily still nothing major happening in past few days-enjoying the relative peace in my life!

Morning,

Nice early start. Relative peace should be embraced something we forgot was possible whilst at our gambling peak. Nothing wrong with seeing 80 pages of your thoughts either. Shows your level of commitment to recovery. Seeing good people like yourself continue forward is what keeps me active on this site.

Long may it continue.

Flagg

Glad all has been going good for ya lately. A lot to be said for peaceful and yeah its priceless.

Hi Irene.

Thanks for your post. I have really been enjoying getting back into my cooking and baking and it is lovely to be entertaining others again with my homeade food!! Something I was not able to do whilst I was gambling all my salary away.

I think after gambling heavily, 'peace' and 'normality are just two lovely things to have back in your life once you have made the decision to quit. It really makes you appreciate that life is definitely not all about money and material things. I am just enjoying having lots of colour in my fridge again in the form of food!!

I hope your get sorted out with the insurance people soon. If you would like any of my simple recipies, just let me know and I will give them to you. (now that your Chef has flown the nest)!! How is he doing?

Take care and keep up your fantastic work. Dare I ask? Y---- Y----- ??

Feb (or as I am now being called - Lady Feb)!!

Hi Irene,

Now that's the kind of post I love to read. Enjoying the peace in my life?

Peace is something we all crave and you got it right there, cherish it , how many times did you have that whilst gambling ? You have earnt every moment of it .

Continue to enjoy your recovery.

Take care

Blondie xx

thanks Blondie/Feb/ Soul

Day 116 (i think!)

Savouring the peace still.....despite the postie being busy delivering my debt letters. I'm not going to get stressed- its in the hands of CAB, nothing more I can do at this point.

I've withdrawn my "statement of interest" in a new job I'd been thinking about applying for. I've had enough planned changes for the time being- a job change isn't really neccessary (I love my current job), it would just've been a good opportunity to develop new skills. I don't need the added stress at the moment.

Son's still not gone!!!!!! Redecorating the house- satellite telly's a priority apparently.........they don't want "fat forks" (whatever they are) but will make do with cheapies in the interim.

I'm a wee bit unsure of my role- am I interfering if I turn up with a paintbrush? Do I wait to be invited? Will they think I'm disinterested if I dont?I'm suspecting they wont ask for a hand. It was so much easier when he ws a wee boy!

Me n Paddy's planning a chillaxed weekend- maybe head to the coast if the weather improves a bit- blow away the winter cobwebs.

Told my mate today about my gambling- she knew about the initial online bingo....remember when it was a "harmless" pastime???!!! She was astounded by the time/debt wasted and the way my life had changed. She was also astounded that I hadn't confided in her. To be honest, I'm not sure why I didn't. To be even honester, I see it as my problem and I dont want to burden others and thats why I'm reluctant to confide in "real" people.

Hey, I'm getting better at "help".....I've now got a smoking cessation helper, a debt advisor and several friends who help support me as well as my GC friends who keep me going- not too bad for someone who's usually too proud to ask for help 🙂

Peace x

Day 117

Busy day for me so early post-not got much to report, since its less than 12hours since my last!

Cold, dreich day here-yuk.