Your doing amazing mate!!! Positivity is all over u keep it up! Swordfish
Day 10 today at work no urges to gamble. I had my second councilling session last evening. Went well. Didn't just speak about gambling spoke about other issues in my short life aswell. I know I won't gamble again! I feel relieved and happy. It's only 10 days in but this feeling I have got is great.
Day 10 -gamble free
I will not win because I will not stop
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TGofoH9RDEA&feature=share
Remove link if not allowed for some reason I love this song and started listening to it again. There could be a lot of meanings to it but since giving up for me it is very meaningful
SwordFish wrote:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TGofoH9RDEA&feature=share
Remove link if not allowed for some reason I love this song and started listening to it again. There could be a lot of meanings to it but since giving up for me it is very meaningful
Reminds me of when I was younger aswell and btw day 12 or 13 don't really know all I know is I'm clean for good!
Mr swordfish im loving that song haha and so true. Your clean your happy in yourself and your positive. we cant turn off the rain we have to dance through it!!
Day 15 today! Going good on the gambling front! Feel very tense and agitated though! My temper is very short and had a few arguments with the missus nothing major but I think it's to do with that I keep thinking how much I have lost in my short life! Anyway! Proud to be on day 15 and still going strong!
I will not win because I will not stop!
Hi Mr Swordfish Hope your ok my friend! Anger is an emotion that is gonna come out!
Somthing someone said to me yesterday good luck in not gambling and i realised in openess and honesty. I no longer need luck we are the masters and mistresses of our own Destiny! You can't turn off the rain we have to dance through it!
So been an emotional day. Was my dads birthday. Was a nice get together of family. My moods are fluctuating massively. One minute feeling high and the next very low! Unfortunately the lows are lasting a lot longer than the highs. Will mention this to my councillor on Wednesday. Don't know whether this is still to do with gambling? Maybe it's because that gambling was covering these feelings up and now I'm not doing it? Anyway day 15 complete. "I will not win because I will not stop"
Day 16 complete not day 15 lol
Your doing amazing Mate!!! Keep up the good work!
Day 17 today. It's been a very hard 3 weeks! Nearly 3 weeks anyway! Emotions all over the place. Keep thinking about all the money I have lost in my life. What I could have done with it etc! I have to move on now. I still have great things in my life. A great family a great job a beautiful daughter and a beautiful wife! Why do I still feel so down? Is it a withdrawal from gambling? I have tried giving up before but maybe it's different this time because of the fact I don't want to gamble anymore which is obviously good but I think there is a part of me that's missing it?! I won't gamble again! I don't want that sick feeling after a loss ever again! The walk of shame! The terror about telling your wife and your family! I don't want that ever again and I know I won't experience it now! I have even had payday over the last week and have not been tempted at all!
Day 17 gamble free
I will not win because I will not stop
Keep plodding on swordfish, you are doing so well. we cant change the past, put the losses to bed and think of the future. you have a great family and they will be very proud of you too!
i look forward to hearing more from youre recovery, stay strong!
ben
Hey mate! I know your feeling down and have a lot on But hold that head high take it one day at a time and you really will get there mate! So you have lost money....... Everyone here has. Iv lost proberbly close to 25k over a 3 year period i could be driving around in a range rover or been to disney world with the kids a few times....... Yes true i spu*nked it all. But what you need to take from this is the life experience all that pain and hurt draw a line and you need to turn into positive energy and motivation for the future remember that hurt and pain and as your confidence and happiness grows so will your bank balance. stop being so hard on yourself you can go home to the wife and kids every night hold your head high because your doing so well!
Thanks everyone for your continued support. We will all do this together!
Hi everyone. Day 18 today. Been working very hard lately and also been very stressed out and felt very low. Have had no urge to gamble but feel like I am withdrawing big time. Had councilling tonight and it went very well. Needed it desperately! Asked if you can actually physically withdraw from gambling as that's how I feel. She said you can! Not just when your betting but when you walk into a bookies you have a massive adrenalin rush and adrenalin is very addictive so you do withdraw physically and mentally. I also asked her if it's normal the way I'm feeling about being obsessed with money etc and she also said that was normal. She was very confident in me as I have showed great honesty and have put so many things in place. Before the Councilling I felt very low today but now feel much better! I honestly recommend it to anyone who has not yet had it. Day 18 complete looking forward to day 19.
One day at a time!
Day 18- gamble free
I will not win because I will not stop
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