Day 19 feeling much better about things now. I know I probably feel low again soon I have not had so many ups and downs in my life without being able to put my finger on why. The words which made me feel better from my councillor last night was to take one day at a time. My obsession with money and finances starts making me think and worry about things that may happen in over a years time and it makes me very anxious.
One day at a time
Day 19- gamble free
I will not win because I will not stop
well done gaz and 19 days, that is a massive achievment. like you said, take one day at a time and inevitably you will have low days. it is about overcoming the low days, looking back on how far you have come already and focussing your mind on your goal to stay gamble free. keep working hard mate!
ben
Hi Swordfish , Look buddy those feeling you speak of , the high's and low's are all part of the initial recovery stage , your not getting those daily fixes that you were , the one's that were keeping you topped up , win , lose or draw and much like giving up smoking your body goes through a similar sort of withdrawl . Stick with it and it will get easier with every day you put between you and your last bet , when I stopped over 9 months ago now , my head was all over the place , happy as Larry one minute and crying my eyes out the next , just accept it's going to be that way way for a short while my friend , It's the same about dwelling on money issues , weather it be losses or debt , with time it will go away and as I was told early in recovery by someone much wiser " Recoveries for life , so what's the rush " , It's a long and sometimes bumpy ride to get to where want to be , so sometimes it's better to sit back relax and enjoy the ride .
And your counciller is quite right , " One day at a time " and "Little steps " are the way forward .
Best wishes ..........................Alan
Thanks for you post on my Diary SF
Read though yours your doing great it takes a while to get over a big loss but you just have to let go and stop letting it haunt you, easier said than done i know but whats gone has gone, last week before I started this I put £10 yes just £10 on to a well known online site got upto £900 and ended up with nothing felt ill, all i thought is could of done fair few things with that and now its still a shadow in my mind, somtimes what i find helps me is buying my self somthing that i prob wound not normaly buy coz i was always saving that money to gamble and then you see what you could have instead of gambling helps me a bit anyway actually seeing somthing you want for you money other than feeling misary that gambling causes!
anyway all the best your doing so well keep it up, love you little saying about not wiining coz you will not stop very true.....
So... Busy day at work today. Feel sooo much better than I have done over the last week or two. Nice day off tomorrow my daughter having a sleep over at her friends so going to spend a quality evening with the missus and will look forward to that.
Seems like a lot of positivity in this forum at the moment which is great.
Day 19 gamble free
I will not win because I will not stop
3 weeks tomorrow with no bet. I'm not going to lie it has been f@cking hard! It's not a long time 3 weeks but the fact that i have had money to gamble with if I wanted to (I don't want to) makes it feel a whole lot longer. Yes I have been this long without a bet before but I knew I was going to have a bet again. I was kidding myself. This time is different. It feels different! Not everyone believes me (I've said it all before) but to be bet free after 3 weeks with money on the hip is a f@cling good achievement. And I am proud of myself for that.
Day 20 gamble free
One day at a time
I will not win because I will not stop
Morning gaz!
YES! youre smashing it, 3 weeks is such a good achievment.
I believe in you so keep proving the doubters wrong. well done mate
Ben
Well done on day 20 my friend you have been a lot happier this week and a lot more positive good for you mate!
Chalking them days up!!! lets keep going
What a good day!! Day 21 tomorrow!! Can't wait!!
So... 3 weeks now! Busy at work today. Paper work coming out my @r*e! Feeling ok. Still bit stressed and anxious but I know it will pass. Keep gamble free people.
Gaz
Well done on 3 weeks Gaz, I'm only coming up to a week and it's felt like a year, hard work always pays off tho I say!
This time 3 weeks ago I had my last bet ever! I had my last loss ever! The last time of feeling terrible! Useless! Unworthy! Scared! This time 3 weeks ago I was trembling with fear of telling my wife and family what I had done. I couldn't sleep! A thousand pound in about an hour! Awful! Devastation. 3 weeks on and I have money in the bank! Just finished watching a film with the missus. Daughter tucked up in bed and dog and cat doing my head in! Just as it should be!
One day at a time
3 weeks gamble free
I will not win because I will not stop
Well done at 3 weeks swordfish. Great effort. Keep it going!
Thanks change!
So.. Day 22
Sun is shining quite hot today (us on the south east don't get this that often) typical Sunday morning, daughter playing my missus very hormonal and stressy due to pregnancy. Wouldn't change it. Not for the world! Got a busy week at work ahead. Going to chill out (if my wife let's me) lol before a busy week.
Day 22 gamble free
One day at a time
I will not win because I will not stop
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