Worry and Regret

RR

fella sorry to read about your injuries, I hazard to guess the possible result of a common trait of the compulsive gambler, the do or die attitude, all or nothing, to go gung ho at everything we do, something I have given to many aspects of life, often with detrimental results. I understand finally the benefit of exercise and equally that I don’t need a gym to do it in, that being said I look forward to using the facilities of my gym again when able because I really did see the difference in my both physical and mental health as a result. The other thing I today understand better is the understanding that the warm up and warm down are equally important as the exercise itself.

new members are definitely a plenty, my hope they take from the forum as much as I do 

have a good weekend my friend 

Duncs

I’ve had a real super day today. Nothing overly special but I just find myself feeling happy and content.

Me and the boy had a nice 5 mile run this morning. I enjoy running with my son and I think he’s doing super with his running. The lockdown has provided time to help him with his running and he’s improving all the time. More than anything he loves it and its great to have kids who want to be fit and outside rather than sit in on an xbox all day. I was always an outside boy.

We went a long walk this afternoon and enjoyed watching a movie tonight. Good day and everyone seems happy. Never spent a penny.

RR

Thanks for that RR.. Yes double treats. Double viewing.. 

You take care 

Boo ???

Real tough run this morning. One of those types where you’re challenged mentally. Feel as though you have no energy, always running uphill and into a strong wind but you get through it and feel good afterwards. Running is like life for me now it can be tough but if you don’t quit and get through it it makes you stronger and better. Just like gambling addiction. Its tough at the start and you think you have no resistance but if you can break down the challenges and overcome them you get stronger, it gets easier and you build up resistance.

Im 222 days gamble free today and my life is better for this time away from a bet. I try not to look back too much but focus on what’s in front of me. My life is improving all the time and Im excited about this.

RR

I’ve really struggled to post in the past week. I’m totally fine and getting on with things but I’ve lacked the motivation to come here and post. 

My life continues in this new routine. Go for a run in the morning and go for a long walk late afternoon. I need the old routine of working hard during the week to appreciate the enjoyment of the weekend. It won’t be long.

I was supposed to return to work tomorrow but this has been postponed for another week.

Patience is key.

Whenever anything bothers me in life I always think “well at least I’m not gambling. It could always be far worse”. This statement is very true.

RR

I ran 10 miles this morning. My last three miles were the fastest and the last mile was faster than any other mile.

I am aware that I go on about my running a great deal which may be annoying to some but I cannot help it. My run today has made me so happy. I feel great. The happiness I now get from running is different to the type of short term happiness I used to seek whether it be roulette or food or anything else. Running happiness stays with me for the whole day and has a profound influence on my day and my state of mind.

I have ditched something which had an unbelievably unhealthy impact on my life and replaced it with something which improves all aspect of my health. 

Gambling addiction made me sick in mind and body. I was always in to fitness but roulette stole this away from me for many years. I ate bad, slept bad and worried constantly for years. Running is resolving a lot of issues for me. When I run I think clearly, I plan goals and I’m aware of my surroundings. I run without worry or fear nowadays. When I’m loving running I want to eat healthily. 

Tonight, I will go to bed happy, content and tired. Tonight, I will sleep a peaceful sleep. I’m sure this is how it should be.

RR

Hi... running is a life saver really. Am glad the powers that be never took that away from us. They did in Spain and Italy for a period of weeks.

Like you say healthy body healthy mind.

Am off today guess what I am going to do..

Keep up the good work as i try to do the same

Hello RR. 

Thanks for your reply. 

Yes it's a funny one with me at the mo. 

Thank you  for your confidence in me. I do feel better and will re emerge a butterfly out of this..

Take care 

Boo 

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So, it’s back to work tomorrow. Shirts ironed, shoes to polish. It feels like the first day back at school.

The lockdown has been a strange affair and one we’ll look back on for years to come. Us humans. At the start it was weird and I wanted back to work. Then, after three weeks, it became the norm, I had accepted the new habit of living and it didn't seem that bad. I’ve exercised far more than normal and I’ve spent lots of time with the kids which is rare Monday - Friday.

I can only imagine the damage I would be capable of if still playing roulette during a 7 week lockdown. I’d be in a mess. I suspect I’ll never tire of being grateful for not gambling. I think the penny has finally dropped this time.

RR

Hope it goes OK RR. 

Stay safe. 

Boo 

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So, with absolutely no hairdressing experience to my name, I thought I could absolutely cut the hair of my boys and get my wife to cut mine. Nightmare. We all look mental. In addition to this, I actually cut my son and my daughter shouted “real blood”. My hair looks like it was cut in the dark and my wife is a little sheepish about the whole thing. I have thick hair and it grows fast so not to worry.

I had an run this morning which lacked energy in howling wind and rain but the miles are in the bank now. The other day I was running just over 7 minute miles in my 5 mile run and my pace has improved greatly thanks to the lockdown training consistency.

Today, I am 240 days gamble free which equates to eight months also two thirds of a year. That time has flown by. Weeks now go faster than days did at the beginning. The beginning is the hardest no matter what your trying to change or give up.

Been back at work this week. Surreal is the best description I can offer.

RR

Well done on your motivation RR. 

Glad to hear your continuing recovery 

Boo 

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RR fella I know it’s not funny but I couldn’t help having a little chuckle over the woes of home hairdressing, it rolled the clock back some 25 years when our eldest was a couple of years old and Sarah and her mum decided to cut him a fringe, the result a rapid trip to a barber to fix the disarray. I respect the fact that barbers are qualified folk and although I do cut my own unruly hair myself I wouldn’t recommend it to anyone who doesn’t have hair like mine lol. My profile picture explains it better without words!!

 I hope that your return to work went safely and without any trouble.

keep making the right choice 

just for today 

Duncs 

Hello my friend. Hope you are well. Yes I am thanks. 

Met a run buddy other day. Total within remit of guidelines. Fabulous.  Coffee from flasks on a car park sat on camping chairs post run. Life is sweet... 

Take care my friend... 

Boo ??

Thanks Boo, nice post.

I will get an early run this morning before it gets too hot. Clocked up an impressive number of miles in May and I definitely feel fitter, quicker and stronger.

What has amazed me during the lockdown is how much longer your weekend lasts when you’ve got nowhere to go. Its nice. My weekends usually fly by because Im out at football and racing between kids clubs but for now its at a slow pace and you can relax. I like this for a short while only but I’ll try to enjoy it while it lasts.

RR