Yet another 4 weeks without a single penny

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I’ve been impulse gambling for around 4 years now.

To the point where these past 2 years I’ve had money from my wages for maybe 2 days at most, then I am left with NOTHING for 4 weeks.

i have done it again this month. (Today)
I do it when I’m bored, I chase my loses and I impulsively want more even after BIG WINS. I’ve won thousands and lost it within a couple of days and then more some even when my first initial deposit was only small.

Even though I hate having to quiet literally go weeks without an adequate amount of food and other essentials it’s like when I get to the end of the month and get paid again the struggle of the past month disappears and I’m right back at it again.

I don’t know how to stop, nobody knows, not my friends family or colleagues.

the closest I came to not gambling all my money away in a matter of days is when I took my wage out in cash after paying my essential bills (Rent, Gas, Water, Electric & council tax) however when I think of doing that now the urge takes over as I know I won’t be able to gamble if I do so.

I also can’t stop thinking about the big wins I’ve had and how ‘this one bet could be the one’ like it has been in the past which encourages me to bed more and more.

It’s not a one day at a time thing for me as like I said I now won’t gamble for 4 weeks and 2 days to be exact as that is when I get paid and I won’t really think about it until I’m at work and can’t eat lunch or when I next get paid and do it again.

i want to stop, I need to stop. I wish I could take my brain out and change it as even as I am writing this I am thinking in my head about ‘what if I have a massive win like previously’ 

I don’t know, I need help.

 Thanks for reading 

 
Posted : 28th May 2024 9:12 pm
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Posted : 29th May 2024 8:57 am
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Hello, I wanted to stop by as I saw your thread and realised you are going through exactly what I am also..

I would use online slots on my phone.. I would always think I would double my money but as always it would give you a few decent wins and then drain the life out of you.

 

2 days ago I woke up and decided this isn’t going to happen to me again, I spoke to me partner and family and told them I have a problem.  I then self excluded myself from any gambling with my name,details. I also blocked gambling on all of my debit cards. 

I got paid my wages on the 24th may and they were gone by the 26th.. by admitting you have a problem you are half way there, also sharing it with family is great too, as they will understand when you admit you need help. 

it’s up to you to make the change and put a stop to it…

 

I look forward to your reply to see how you are getting on.

 

take care.

 
Posted : 29th May 2024 2:30 pm
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Posted by: @xwa4kgy92l

I’ve been impulse gambling for around 4 years now.

To the point where these past 2 years I’ve had money from my wages for maybe 2 days at most, then I am left with NOTHING for 4 weeks.

i have done it again this month. (Today)
I do it when I’m bored, I chase my loses and I impulsively want more even after BIG WINS. I’ve won thousands and lost it within a couple of days and then more some even when my first initial deposit was only small.

Even though I hate having to quiet literally go weeks without an adequate amount of food and other essentials it’s like when I get to the end of the month and get paid again the struggle of the past month disappears and I’m right back at it again.

I don’t know how to stop, nobody knows, not my friends family or colleagues.

the closest I came to not gambling all my money away in a matter of days is when I took my wage out in cash after paying my essential bills (Rent, Gas, Water, Electric & council tax) however when I think of doing that now the urge takes over as I know I won’t be able to gamble if I do so.

I also can’t stop thinking about the big wins I’ve had and how ‘this one bet could be the one’ like it has been in the past which encourages me to bed more and more.

It’s not a one day at a time thing for me as like I said I now won’t gamble for 4 weeks and 2 days to be exact as that is when I get paid and I won’t really think about it until I’m at work and can’t eat lunch or when I next get paid and do it again.

i want to stop, I need to stop. I wish I could take my brain out and change it as even as I am writing this I am thinking in my head about ‘what if I have a massive win like previously’ 

I don’t know, I need help.

 Thanks for reading 

 

 
Posted : 29th May 2024 6:47 pm
(@blmd1psr5f)
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Sorry to hear your story reading it was like reading story of my life! Just know your not alone you sound like you've really had enough of this addiction.  Trust me I've tried stopping numerous times. But I keep trying and this time feels different I'm not even thinking about gambling at all. Keep trying 

 
Posted : 29th May 2024 6:51 pm
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Posts: 525
 

Hi there.

I know only too well, that gut wrenching feeling when your monthly salary hits your account and then within a matter of hours (as has been the case with me on several occasions), it has all gone, just like that! Then that gut wrenching “has this just really happened” thought hits you!

It sounds like you need to put every block in place you can do, if you really want to stop.  Is this the case?

I wish you well.

Pink Lady. 🩷🍎.

 
Posted : 29th May 2024 6:54 pm
cpparch
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Hi, 

Do you gamble online? If so, get those blocks in place before the 4 weeks is up. You need to close the doors, leaving one open, just a tiny bit, will always take you back there. 

Eventually you could bet the value of a house, win double and you’ll still want more and it will always all go back and more. 

Wishing you all the best, 

Claire x

 
Posted : 29th May 2024 8:08 pm
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Reach out for help with the all the available avenues keep talking about get support put barriers in place for when u next get paid once you get over that hurdle things will get easier but make sure you put everything into not gambling when u next get paid 

 

 
Posted : 30th May 2024 4:36 pm
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All you are gambling for is to try and win the life you would have if you didn’t gamble. 

That’s the saying that always sticks with me. I quit 2 months ago after many years. Same situation as you. Broke after 2 days, struggling through the rest of the month. Best thing I ever did was come in here and seek help. As everyone says, use all the tools available on here and with you bank. It can be done. I’ve never felt better about gambling than I have since I quit. I feel like a normal person now. I’m still skint and will be for a while but I can treat myself now and again, even the day before payday. I’ve not been able to do that for years!

Good luck 💪

 
Posted : 30th May 2024 7:14 pm
(@qrscpldevb)
Posts: 2
 

@p6z38njbqm thank you for that saying. That has really struck a chord with me. Today is my day 1 and just signed up to stop as I was at my lowest point once I realised how much I had spent and lost and still weeks away from payday. I still keep thinking I wish I could get that 1 big win to make up for it, but your right I'm trying to get back to the point where I should be if I hadn't gambled at all. 

I'm full of shame and haven't told anyone about my addiction as I'm too embarrassed and almost didn't want to admit it to myself. 

 
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