Adampoker, 1000 days gamble free

I started this journey back in 2015..... I was sure that gambling online was taking all my money after food and bills plus a bit more..... I was increasing my stakes online and it was getting to the point where I was gambling over my days wage on each poker tournament I was playing......  Gamstop wasn't around so on here I had a low point so said I'd stop so I excluded from my online poker site had a couple of weeks free from it...... Then thoughts of I'll just have another go so I joined a new site and started again untill the inevitable low point exclude and start again vicuous cycle...... Then I thought right online is bad I'll play in pubs for small stakes...... This went ok for a year and then I started with the fruit machines for excitement...... I've come to the conclusion that no matter the stakes high or low I am one of these people who can't gamble.....I obsess about my interests be it football, work, coffee, gym, poker, fruit machines, computer games..... Whatever it is Im doing I do it to the max...... With this in mind if I'm gambling it's all that's in my mind...... Very unhealthy.

Well the good news was that gamstop came along finally enabling me to exclude from all online, sense to exclude from my local UK casinos and Moses to exclude from my local bookies...... I reluctantly at a very low point with help of my parents signed up to all of them...... Now this doesn't include pubs so I as a new avenue to continue I still played in pubs for a number of years but in 2018 I was stressed at work due to my manager and no doubt the gambling most days of pub poker (see the obsessiveness, I was playing Mondays Tuesdays Thursdays and some weekends) and I don't know whether this was because of the gambling but I was on performance management with the manager writing all my mistakes down and scrutinizing everything I was doing each day and writing it up and emailing it to me.  Well this was going on I went to the social club one day in august and put all my money in one machine untill I could no longer get any out of the machine 300 pounds.... Then I had to borrow off a friend for the first time ever.... Then I finally broke down to my parents and they paid me some money to pay friend back. However I was going on holiday to isle of white the next weekend after a festival...... So I went to festival and as I have skitsophrenia all the stress took over me that holiday and I had voices didn't sleep had a terrible holiday then had a really bad skitsophrenia episode and was signed off work for six weeks.

This was august 2018.... I decided that I wanted to be more healthy so I decided no more alcohol or gambling........  I had six weeks off work then had a meeting at work and thankfully they kept me on as a porter working less hours under a position with less stress..... Adjustments.....

I went from that day in august untill my birthday in may without gambling then I thought a birthday treat to gamble in pub...... So I did and then the obsessiveness took over and i was going every night again then as soon as I started on the fruit machines and I thought no this is not good so start of December 2019 I gave up for good.....

No drugs, no alcohol, no ciggerettes, no gambling, healthy lifestyle no stress, work hard but not too much and save as much as I can to own my own property.

So I lived with my folks to save but bought a flat and rented it out to pay the mortgage so I could live there in the future.  I saved and saved and saved one year I spent under five hundred after bills the entire year..... Then in 2022 I managed to pay back the mortgage and now I just owe my parents some money and don't owe the Banks anything ......

So once I'd paid back the mortgage I was able to move in.  So with skitsophrenia it's very daunting living on own.  I thought It would be tough but I've been here three months now and it's actually fine.

So now I'm concentrating on living independently, living a healthy life and paying back the thousands I owe my parents .......

But money wise I've controlled all my vices I've not done drugs since 2008, I've not smoked ciggerettes since 2016 I've not drunk since 2018 and I've not gambled since Dec 2019 so I can afford to live comfortably and save for retirement in my flat....

I have to say that if u are obsessed with gambling as much as I was it does seem impossible to stop but once u have u can like me become obsessed with other avenues in life become obsessed with money still just obsessed with the saving of it......become obsessed with they health gym, sleep well, work hard, enjoy football, enjoy games, enjoy nature, enjoy family and friends ...... There's so much to enjoy and look back but don't stare......start a spreadsheet look at ur spending and obsess over what u can achieve......I'm not there yet I'll be there when I'm comfortable in retirement but untill then I'm going to strive to be my best .......let's do this......

Thank you gamcare friends, gamcare mods this site has been incredible for me xxxx