Hello everyone.
I wanted to come on here and share what I have achieved over the past 4 years, since I last wrote on here.
First of all my reasons behind not writing on here for 4 years.......at the beginning I was hooked with all the comments which made me want to really kick the habit but then they became less and less and it felt like no one was bothered about what I wrote and no one was following my stories.
Well here goes with my success story.....
6 years a go I was at the lowest point in my life, living at home. I had being going out with my partner for 2 years and she had no idea of the large sum of debt I had amassed through my addiction. My Mother found out and forced me to tell her as she felt she needed to know as our relationship was getting serious. My mother, bless her tried everything to help me, including clearing my first debt build up but that just made me worse. At this point no one I knew trusted me and I had absolutely nothing but gambling and and alcohol which made me feel suicidal. I don't know why my partner stayed with me at this point, I really don't.....what a waste of space I was!
The last 6 years has been a long old road and I have relapsed at least 4 times during that period. Including my wife finding out 2 weeks before our wedding that ' I had done it again'. Even the tears and broken heart I caused and the threat of her leaving did not stop me and I relapsed again straight after the wedding managing to keep it from he until 15th March 2015. This day was the turning point....I was due to go to dublin that week for my best mates 30th Bday but lost everything I had and there was no way I could go. I worried all day at work how I was going to tell my wife. she got home from work and I burst in to tears right in front of her(something she had never witnessed) I told her everything and could not begin to explain how sorry I was. I was sure our relationship would be over and I would lose the love of my life......but she believed in me one last time, I was adamant I was not going to dublin but she lent me money and said go and enjoy your weekend. I have not gambled since!!
Me admitting to my wife that I was an addict was the breakthrough I needed as I was always in denial and always thought I could make money but I could never control my gambling, one bet led to another and another and a another.......I wanted more!! whatever I won was never enough.
Fast forward over 2 1/2 years and I have never been as comfortable about my addiction and very rarely feel the urge to relapse.
Hi Iryna
How brilliant to hear that you have managed to stop and stayed stopped for such a long time.
I especially liked the bit in your post that says "but she believed in me one last time, I was adamant I was not going to dublin but she lent me money and said go and enjoy your weekend. I have not gambled since!!" This truly explains plainly, how powerful loving support can be and credit to you both that you have made something great out of it. Long may it continue my friend...
Take care, and I wish you and your loved ones a lovely festivities.
Ergos
That's a powerful story and I am glad you're partner stuck with you through thick and thin. It reminds me of my partner who has stuck with me through my relapses and helped me too but thankfully not financially.
Long story short this is the first time right now I am out of money and lending from my partner. Not because of gambling but because of living! And getting paid monthly for the first time in years
That's a powerful story and I am glad you're partner stuck with you through thick and thin. It reminds me of my partner who has stuck with me through my relapses and helped me too but thankfully not financially.
Long story short this is the first time right now I am out of money and lending from my partner. Not because of gambling but because of living! And getting paid monthly for the first time in years
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