Hi everyone,
I'm 26, Muslim and live in the UK. I married to my beautiful wife who has no idea I gamble.
I mention I'm Muslim as gambling is against my religion and despite generally being 'religious', this is one demon I can't stop!
I started online gambling from when I was about 18 up to age 22 or 23... I lost all my money I had slowly saved which totalled about 15k.
I got over this and didn't gamble ever again for about 3 years.
I was over the guilt and had gotten in with my life but recently I've started again and lost 3k.
I feel so sick and depressed. My salary is around £1500 a month and I've basically just lost 2 months wages for nothing. Good news is that I still have 5k savings in my bank which I'm happy about.
About 30 mins ago, I have closed all my account and before closing, I changed the allowance limit to £10. This means if I ever fell back, it would take me 24 hours to deposit.
TODAY IS THE DAY I END GAMBLING. I WISH I NEVER DO IT AGAIN. I WONT. I WONT WIN AND IF I DO, I WILL LOSE IT AGAIN.
How can I be sure I won't go back again? I hate it so much but can't help myself. I have one friend who knows everything, he tells me to join the gym as I have an addictive personality and hopefully this will help. What have you all done to make sure?
Thanks for reading
Hi and welcome.
First your already starting in a negative with the words if I ever fell back.
Just setting the deposit limit to 10 pounds isn't a good start you should of self excluded yourself for 5 years or permanent.
You're leaving yourself a gateway back to gambaling when ever that thought comes. And believe me it will come at some point.
So to start off on the right foot go back and self exclude for the maximum period.
Then think about putting some anti gambaling blocking software on your devices.
Try to fill your time the best you can. The gym sounds like a good plan.
Glad to have you aboard
All the best
Thanks, all done. Everything is closed. I will NOT gamble again.
Well done a more positive approach already.
Start off on the right foot
Stay away from the first bet you can't place the second.
The general advice would be to seek counselling through gamcare which is free. And or reach out to a local gamblers anonymous group
There's plenty of tools to keep you on the straight and narrow
Hi and welcome, Deano is right, if you really want to give it up you need to put blocks in place and close them down for good. Download the K9 software onto your computer, iPad etc, Will power alone may not be enough, you need to be strong when the urges come and they will in the early days. Draw a line under the losses your never going to win them all back and keep thinking about them will drive you to gamble again. Make the change now before your sitting here in 5 years time or less saying all your savings have gone and your 5k in debt. Be in control of your own future, don't let gambling destroy it . read some diaries on here. Take care and best wishes to you x
Thanks everyone. You are right, I should be happy I'm not in debt. Things could be so different.
Hi Saddi, i related to you on this thread as i too blocked the sites for a couple of weeks, everyone said "you must block altogether", really good advice yet i wasnt ready to take it, i hope you quit altogether after all youve done it before, but i think like me you had that niggle of not wanting to stop altogether hence the low deposit limit,
I am a catholic and gambling is seen as an evil too so i understand your guilt, i wish you all the best
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