Hi,
I’ve had a gambling addiction for nearly 10 years now, I’ve been on and off the wagon so to speak and I thought I had it under control, the the last few months I have completely lost it gambling anything that came my way. The money I lost is one thing but I’ve also lost my partner. All because I couldn’t bare her finding out that I’d spiralled so badly and lost all the money, so I lied and I was so so horrible and I walked out on her and our upcoming wedding. I’m riddled with guilt, even more so now I’ve told her everything and she is still willing to support me- even after everything I’ve done(all Beit from afar for now). I’m extremely grateful for this as it’s kicked me into full quit and never look back mode. But I’m struggling so badly, it’s been 4 days and I can’t seem to see a way out.
I have a GA meeting coming up, and I’m terrified of that too. My anxiety to go is outweighing my willpower at the moment and I need it not to! I need to stop now and for good this time or i will lose everything for good!
Is anyone currently attending GA? That could give me a little insight of what to expect for my first meeting? I would really appreciate it. I need to put my all into this or I will spend another 10 years denying my addiction and causing myself and others pain.
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Thank you
Zoe x
Dear @J12729,
Thank you for joining the GamCare forum and for sharing your story. I am really glad you have joined and hope you find the support and encouragement from other members to be helpful. You can also connect with members through our online group chatroom.
It sounds as though it has been a really difficult time. It is good that you are four days gamble free and you are taking a really positive step by seeking help. You are very welcome to speak with an advisor on our helpline on 0808 8020 133, on Netline, or through WhatsApp. We are here 24 hours, so you are never alone in this. We can discuss with you various options which can help. With the right support in place, people can and do recover from problem gambling.
Your partner is also welcome to contact us, as we also offer various support to people affected by someone else's gambling.
It is natural to feel apprehensive about attending your first Gamblers Anonymous meeting but the people there will understand what it is like to have a problem with gambling and are there to help and support you.
If you get in contact with us, we can also have a chat with you about arranging some free one to one professional support.
Please keep posting; we are here for you.
Best wishes,
Sophie
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