Hi,
I'm new here.
DEEP BREATH.
Only yesterday was the first time I had reached out for real help. I had been in denial about this problem and I need to admit it to myself that this is a problem. I live a perfectly happy life, I have a good job a beautiful baby and a caring partner. My job is stressful and I am always on the go but I wouldn't change it. So why do I give in to this temptation of slot sites every night when my daughter goes to bed?
Having never gambled before in my life this all started on maternity leave as an idea that maybe I could win a little bit of money to help me with the rest of the month being on reduced wage (I KNOW SILLY IDEA) But I did, I won! Aaaand then it started... a Tenner here and there, turns into twenty, thirty - hundreds and in flow the losses. Never winning enough and always chasing. It had got me and suddenly I realised you never actually win because you always put back.
For the past four months this has gotten out of control only three days ago I lost such a large amount I felt so ashamed. I told myself that night tomorrow I am getting help this has to stop. I have so much good in my life to let this ruin it.
I reached out to the live chat yesterday who were soo helpful, advised me to put exclusions in place which I did last night. Its early days but the freedom I felt from registering to self exclude and like I was taking back that control has given me a sense of right ok I can do this.
I'm determined to beat this, getting this all off my chest to let it go and start a fresh.
I’m in a similar situation, one year old baby, just lost a stupid amount of 3.8 thousand pound, now I don’t know if your loss was less or more but either way you’re not alone I feel absolutley rock bottom at the moment with my huge loss. I won 5k just to bet 3.7k of it back and leave myself with 1.3k. Be grateful you got a good job and a family mate. Some people have major major debts, lost their families jobs etc. I have a s**t job on minimum wage but keep telling myself atleast i still have that income and my family etc
Like many people I thought I just had a Gambling problem.
When asked how I was I use to say I was fine or not so bad.
The addictions only indicated that when I was emotionally vulnerable I use to react in some unhealthy ways.
My emotional triggers were my pains I could not heal.
My emotional triggers were my fears I could not face or reduce.
My emotional triggers were due to my unreasonable expextations of people life and situations.
My emotional triggers were my isolating my self because of my fears of emotional intimacy.
My emotional triggers were my boredom due to the fact I use to procratinate and did many things for unhealthy reasons.
There was one person that said he ws glad that he was a compulsive Gambler.
By finding the recovery program he found out how unhealthy he was.
In time I gave up beating my self and calling my self names.
For me the recovery program helped me help heal the hurt inner chid in me.
The recovery program helped me reach so many goals in my life.
Healing Love and peace to every one.
Dave L
AKA Dave of Beckenham
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