Day 1 again, how many times have I said this to myself over the last 8 years of being a Gambling Addict? Numerous failed attempts of lasting a few months before failing again.Â
Signing up to GamBan but still finding sites that are not members, why do I go through the effort of wasting time searching for these sites, knowing I have just signed up to stop myself from Gambling?Â
If I only stayed committed to stopping many years ago, I would be out of this financial mess I am in, but instead years & years of constant loans & borrowing on the mortgage to fund this awful addiction.Â
I am 40 now, with a lovely home, amazing family & a great job. Why can’t this be enough to live a normal life like everyone else? Instead I have this side to me that isn’t the person I am, in every other aspect of my life. I can save for family holidays & things for the house, but then can be so reckless with this addiction. It’s as if I am 2 different people & it’s scary.  Â
The most difficult part of this addiction is the losses, I am never going to recoup the 150k that has been lost, so why do I carry on losing more & more. I wish there was a magical button that could wipe that thought out of my mind.Â
It really is a cruel addiction, it lures you in with the thought of winning but then takes everything you have in return.Â
Stay safeÂ
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Lauren
I can relate to a lot of what you’ve said there. Iv had day 1 I don’t know how many times. I’m now on day 7. And it honestly feels great. Not saying The urge isn’t still in my head but it’s defo fading which I never thought would happen!Â
Hello Carlos and Welcome
Gamban is not the most important tool for this job. The addiction is deluding you and the REALITY is you don't have effective blocks......you don't have a block......you gambled!
Have you told your family? Have you told your father for example? Recovering from this addiction comes from the depths of your soul and starts with a born again moment.
If you haven't considered living on an allowance while somebody manages your money, you are not even beginning to understand the sheer power of this addiction.
We understand the confusion but it should become clear that you are looking for ways to gamble and have the time and money to do so....an open door! That will always lead to relapses if you are not properly protected
You are two different people because it's a split mind control illness......a mental illness and you need serious help.
Forget your pride and being a gown man....you need to hold the white flag of humility up and seek proper help
Of course you won't win it back but you know that really.....the drug is in the act of gambling and you need to do some proper cold turkey which will start to heal you
You can never be complacent again for the rest of your life but that will turn into a serene thought when you are truly ready
Best wishes from everyone on the forum
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