Depressed

Poblwc wrote:

Luke you are very much like me. My mum had cancer - i had cancer, my dad wore glasses i had to wear glasses, my mum suffered with bad hay fever - i suffer from hay fever. My brother and sister are fine!!! They get nothing!! I did use - years ago - my dads inheritance to have a breast reduction - thats when the cancer was discovered. I have also used money for laser eye treatment - i have perfect vision so i have done good things with the money. You are very very good with words - you should hflp others as you talk a lot of sense and given me a lot if courage now to stop for good instead of talking about it. I have started a diary and will saving £10 for each i do not gamble to save for a holiday. As you say im lucky to have a good husband. If he knew he would be very disappointed in me and if i carry on mu marriage will be over. This forum will help me if there are people like you out there sho understands.

I listen to my intuition and what i feel should be said at the current time, i am a reiki practitioner but my problem is i find helping others is much easier than myself. Problem is to help others one must help themselves first, does not mean i cannot help others with the same problem i guess as we are battling the same demons.

Thanks for your kind words now i can see you are feeling more positive about things just from how you are writing :-). Keep that positivity going and try finding things that make you feel good about yourself, the answer does how ever lie within yourself on how you will best overcome this addiction.

Great to know you have made a diary so you can check how you was feeling certain days etc, adding your normal gambling amount at the bottom just to see how much you are saving over each day, Its amazing how much they add up too! I myself never realised actually how much i was spending until i looked the day after and i would then i would instantly gamble to recoup losses from the day before. Even when i won i would still be trying to recoup more losses.

Illnesses are heriditory and gambling is classed as an illness so yes i guess your right and it can pass on to the next. Just a shame it was me,

It is lovely to see that you have a good man to take care of you and that you also spent the money on beneficial things :-).

I will keep following here to keep in contact if i am helping you on your journey.

Kindest of regards, luke805

Poblwc wrote:

Sorry for misspellings!!

Haha do not worry about mispelling things we all do it 🙂

Ok speak to you soon

Poblwc just checking in on you today how are you handling things? :-).

I hope all is well and your staying strong battling your demons

hi pob,,hows ur day?

Very good thanks. Iv'e been busy all day its the night thats hardest. After switching off last night after the chat it was tough but i got through. I'm aiming small at the moment snd trying to get through one week. This site is brilliant and keeps me busy reading all the stories. I have never ever spoken to anybody about my problem until now. Wish i had done it sooner. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted by just spilling it all out. Thanks michelle for asking. Very considerate of you. Hows your day?

Yeah night is usually the hardest for me too as im not busy at work. But you broken your habit last night which is a huge step!, it proves alot that you did not give in to those pesky demons.

And your right it feels like a weight off my shoulders too, its now time to find options to deal with the addiction :).

Once again well done! 🙂

hi pob ,,yeah nights are a struggle for me too but i just log in here to remind my self im not alone and the support is amazing.good day not gambled so im the winner today ...yay

Thats great keep it up . Speak to you tomorrow and then thats another day yipeee take care x

hi pob ,,day off today and feeling rather positive urges not too bad,hope urs is a good day too cya later