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Hi not a new member buy feel free to move this topic, well it's a new post tread from me.

Little abit about myself been trying to beat this addiction from over the last 2 weeks...in the past I've had counciling over all my past gambling habits across all platforms for 20 years,got the debts, the Iva the financial struggle caused from this...made a decision to join gamstop and self exclude for 5 years. My gambling is Internet. Hrs at a time everyday, now it's gone cut my bankcards up, closed my bank accounts and all wages paid to my partner. I've put all the stops in place..
I can't gamble I can't access it...I'm two weeks in and feeling really low and depressed...finding myself after work lying in the bath for hrs not wanting to get out. Lying in bed just not wanting to do anything, all I'm thinking is gambling and not enjoying my life at the moment, I'm feeling sad unsociable feeling that I have nothing to look forward too..I have kids family yet I don't look forward to coming home from work, all my gambling done at home now I choose not to do it. I don't want to do it. Yet I miss it, is this normal? I think I've had 2 good days out 14 in respect that I enjoyed and felt it didn't effect me...now it's really really difficult being at home, sense of I used to look forward to after work getting home, jobs done settling down laptop on, and away gambling poker all night...now it's all gone, I know for the good, yet bordom and withdrawal sets in really bad..really bad, don't understand what I am meant to feel, is this regret knowing that I can never gamble on the games I enjoyed playing again? Is this the addiction that is clearly strong fighting me...maybe I'm not strong enough to fight it....yet the stops are there self exclude from all the sites directly and also with gamstop...this is hard battle, I'm scared for the future my mindset moving on...doctors maybe?.. Little advise be good...wake up to bed time all I think off is poker sites..I've beat all the other gambling, poker the final hurdle...I miss it so much....Im writing this as the urge right now is so great. And overwhelming me...yet I can't feed it as I have done everything to block my self..the blocks are working..my mindset is not

 
Posted : 31st May 2018 11:51 pm
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I am so sorry to hear about your struggles. I am sure it will get better. Maybe you could get involved at something else after work ? Trying to feel your spare time busy does help . I feel that once a gambler always a gambler and for most of us is a daily struggle but it can be done. I normally think about people in poor country without any money , people with terrible illness all around the world and think how lucky I am to have my healthy , a beautiful family and a job . If you think you need to see a doctor please go ahead as you see like you need help . I hope I could help a bit . I wish you all the best

 
Posted : 1st June 2018 12:26 am
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Hi that's just how my husband was. The gp may be the best place if it continues. Now you need to fill your time. Sitting in the bath thinking is not an active substitute. Start to do things you've ignored or never done. Get support, get active. Exercise definitely helps your mood. This year my husband started planting things in the garden, he'd always mown the lawn and dug the weeds and my plants! He reads, always half hour when he gets in. Go to a meeting, that's real support. It takes time to get over, years sometimes, unfortunately not an overnight fix. It's difficult and takes 100% commitment to stop. Box sets, music, books, exercise.

 
Posted : 1st June 2018 8:34 am

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