Done it again

Thank you for providing me with important information I will ensure I put the right steps in place to help me x

You story sounds very similar to mines, don't beat yourself up about it, it's done now it can't be undone. You need to identify your triggers, my trigger is when I have something big to pay I turn to gambling thinking I could win extra cash and it would be a solution to financial worries but it only makes them worse. I am one month and one day gamble free, what has really helped me is the CBT Therapy that this website offers. Every week I complete a module and speak a counsellor over the phone, I wasn't that sure it would help that much but I genuinely feel that I don't want to gamble anymore I get something out of it every week. Maybe you should have a look and see if is for you. All the best in becoming gf. 

I think I may be similar with the trigger, when I’m saving for something I want to get the money quicker and feel gambling is a way to do that.

I haven’t considered counselling, I know I can give up and I’ve gone many months before, but after a while I miss it and I think I’ll just have one bet, which never ends up one bet! 

im glad everything is working for you, sounds like you are on a good road to recovery, thank you for your help 

Day 2 gamble free.

worked hard today and earned some extra money, nice to know it will go in the bank and bot be gambled away. 
The thought of not being able to bet on the horses does bother me, but I know it’s not worth it. 

These long dark evenings are not helpful but I enjoy running/cycling and might start swimming so hopefully this keeps me entertained in a better way 

Cheers 

Your very welcome, I am getting there slowly. I do the exact same can go months without gambling and then have a complete blowout and spend all available money I have on gambling and end up hating myself for it. Someone onced told me on here the gambling is like your boss deciding to pay your monthly wages with a flip of a coin heads yes tails no. That really hit home with me as basically that's what I do with gambling. The recent module I did with cbt was discussing if winning the big win which I was so longing for and betting for would change my life, I came to the conclusion that it would temporarily help my life but I would still be left with an addiction and all the negativity that comes with that. Do you think it would make your life better? Keep going, take it a day at a time that's all you can do. 

oh I was doing so well! Not even a thought of gambling.

Then boom I blew £750 in a few hours 

it sucks!