Hi, new to gam care just thought I would share my story for two reasons it gets things off my chest and even if it helps one person it's definitely been worth my time.
Well I'm 22 now I initially started gamberlibg when I was 16 in college we would be getting scratch cards playing poker in lessons. Although at the time this didn't seem like a problem just a harmless bit of fun well that's how it always starts.
As time progressed I started gamberlibg in the casinos and bookies and first loved it was having such a good time and won quiet a bit of money. Suppose I was a lonely person buying a lifestyle of being in casinos with bottle of vodka aka trying be a baller.
Then around my early 20s that's what it started to becoming more of a fun thing to do and turned into a problem which will layer not only reuin my life bit have a huge impact on my loved ones.
I would get paid go straight into the bookies go straight to the nearest machine. Put my money on blow 20 pound on one spin then the spins would get higher and higher then I would win then put it all back in and more besides.
So once I ran out of my own money was in the s@#t I needed money to get out of this financial mess I'm in I honestly thought I will win big and I can pay everything back and then.can live a normal life.I won't go into great detail as this is already bored to read.I borrowed stole deceived my love ones so I can gamble. I don't know why I did it but I did I'm not a bad person but do stupid things.
Then my family found out what I had done then I attended GA meetings when I was going ga it really does help with gamberlibg addiction my life was great the eventually I met a lovely girl things couldn't have been better life finally getting back on track I should have told her about my past and been honest with everything, I was so insecure thinking this girl is beautiful and has an amazing personality why would she want to be with me. Where as before when.gamberlibg when your in a club buying bottles of.vodka evey body loves you then.
So we got a place together and I couldn't have been happier waking up next to this girl I love so much I knew she was the one. So I bought a ring not so long into the relationship had paid the deposit for a holiday to vegas. I knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her. I started to lie about where my money was going I got a few month low wages so didn't want to go and say I can't afford rent because I was thinking she will just get rid of me because she deserves an amazing life. So I came up.with a brain wave to go to the bookies won the money I.should have been paid and things will be fine happy days. Safe to say that didn't happen the lot went within 20 minutes. So I deceived my girlfriend she give me money for other things I spent it on gamberlibg when she found out she was there from day on she got me counciling and went back to ga
So now as a result of gamberlibg I have not only destroyed my life but other people's lives aswell.
Lost the love of my life all for a spin of a roulette wheel.
Although their is a silver lining along as you don't gamble what's done is done people do change nows your time I will never forget that quoat you need to come clean get everything out into the open I mean everything.
You can't turn back time but you can make sure the time you can have is right get to GA meetings I highly recommend it. People may forgive what you have done they might not but that's life you have to deal with that. Take it one day at a time and anyone reading this good luck there is a lot more to life than gamberlibg.
Hopefully I can get the love of my life back amd rebuild bridges with people only time will tell. Thanks for reading
Hi Woody,
Reading your opening post it sounds like you stopped GA meetings then the gambling started again? You'll know about all the blockers to put in place, so I'm not going there.
I believe a CG will only stop when they feel they've hit rock bottom. This can come from being caught out by a loved one or you confess (like I did). It sounds like you've lost the love of your life due to gambling? If there's a chance you can get her back, you'll stop.
GA meetings are the most important factors in my recovery. You hear off people who do 6months or more then think they are cured then they reappear having gambled again. I've only been going for 60 days and have heard 3-4 people tell the same old sorry story.
I don't know what made you stop the GA meetings, please let me know.
All the best to you.
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