Fallen Again.

Hello, sorry to hear about the attack, I do hope you're recovering ok from that and that they find the people responsible.

Please don't beat yourself up about the relapse and certainly not about being at Day 0, that is only a number. You should give yourself some credit in that you realised very quickly that this is wrong for you and not where you want to be and that you shared that immediately and sought intervention from your support network. You could also try and take a positive spin on what's happened, you've had a painful reminder that the urge to gamble still lurks and that you need to be on your guard at all times and that this has cost a small amount of money in comparison to what it might have done.

Finally, you mentioned depositing so you were online gambling I presume, have you thought about putting blocks in place such as blocking gambling transactions on your bank account or registering with Gamstop? I personally registered with Gamstop for the maximum 5 years and can honestly say it's the best thing I ever did and if I could I would put a lifetime ban in place.

I wish you all the best.

I’m really sorry to hear about your attack, and completely understand why you faltered. I am only on day 56 of not gambling but the one thing that really rang out to me with your post is that you feel so bad about falling off the wagon. When I’ve fallen off the wagon I’ve gone and spent all my wages in 12 hours, or racked up even more debt. You spent £25 so yes you did gamble again, but you called your mum right away and you took the steps to make sure it didn’t continue. That in itself is a HUGE step forwards, and that you need to be commended for. Don’t think of this one small setback, but think about how far you’ve come from the days you were in the midst of it all. You’ve done amazingly well. Get back on the saddle and know that you can abstain again for another 2 years as you have the strength and power to do it. Much love