Hi all new here

Hi and welcome  

It's a good place to start the recovery  journey and learn about the addiction. 

Sounds like you really had enough  of merry go round and well done to you for making that step and willing  to try something  new!

Blocks does work to the extent  and as you say, if we really want to - we will find a way round.

I am an online gambler and have blocks in place, (gamstop, blocked bank card...etc)  yet I can go to land based establishments if urge really strikes.

It's good that you admit you have a problem.  Now you need to figure out triggers and put things in place to stop you from acting  on them. You are very right - addiction  destroys lives and will just continue  on taking.

We cannot win because we cannot stop! Couldn't  be more true words.

Sounds like you partner  is aware of the problem  and its actually  very good because  addiction  is secretive and we tend to lie through  our teeth...ultimately  digging  deeper hole for us and ppl around us. Applaud  you for your honesty! It's paramount  in recovery.  Please allow her space and time to get her head round it and don't  be upset if she I not willing  to take over finances.  It's quite a bitter pill to swallow for other parties involved. As long as you're  honest and follow your words with actions, it will only get better.

Take it day at a time. Its a life long process.  Nothing gonna change  overnight. 

I hear that you have blocks in place. Did you try any GA meetings? There are meetings for your partner also if she is willing  to learn about addiction.  They are all anonymous. 

Do reach out to advisers on here also. 1 to 1 chats and options will help you to look ahead and make changes. They can also put you in right direction  for free counselling. 

As difficult  as it may seem, recovery  is possible.  Changing habits  never been easy but finding  new interests/hobbies may help you so much! Concentrate  on you and your wellbeing,  remember  that addiction  is strong  but you can be in control  by making that one right choice  at a time. You can change the course of your future ?

Wish you well, be kind to you.

S