Hi - I'm new

one last point i would like to share is ive learned is how to remember the times when ive lost so much i feel sick and in pain, because the times ive thought back the memory has faded and never seems the same my heads and i say what if i only do poker that wasnt so bad keep it small money or just do football coupons then one thing goes wrong then the gambling changes and things dont go my way and then i would bet on snail on the floor and you guessed it i would lose and lose and lose so thats how ive got this far and lots of support which im happy to except and u guys who r the best because u no and been througt the same feelings and understance wow even writting this made me feel good keep strong

Thanks for the reply cjasper

Hi cjasper,

I am pleased to hear your last session went well, I do think you are wise to put up barriers so that you are unable to credit your accounts. And thank you for your good wishes! I am finding it difficult this evening to stop thinking about it! We are having some work done on the house and it is not going quite as well as I should and I feel stressed out, the fireworks are upsetting my dog and he keeps barking which is also stressing me out as well as him! I could just go on line and I know I will feel less stressed monumentally - but I won't!! Xx

Lost my life wrote:

Hi cjasper, thats a great achievement 140 days, well done, i'm in early stages of yet another recovery, what i find really and I mean really hard is the knowledge that the funds are never coming back. That is so difficult for me to accept, also the knowledge iv'e completely f....d up my financial life, my head just can't take it. Any advice on how you have (if you have) put those awful thoughts behind you.

hi mate firstly i think( lost my life) is a bit harsh on yourself but i know what u mean as pleaty of times when i think about the amount of money ive lost it kills me still now, but we all know that winning money back dont help and im laughting to myself writting this as im propadly the world worst for chasing my tail but not my brain is a little more clearer i know theres no winnig realy. if i can give u a example my daughters moving out soon and she want to buy her first house and i should b in a position to help her big time but im not and my head thinks all that money ive lost i could have bought her a house over and over but its a gamblers way of tempimg yourself back ive got 10 years of paying back money before im free but i do feel free because now its not getting worst and i happy to not be on computer 24/7 going thourgh pain of when u just get bea,t or late goal does u in ,or your hand dont hold up and it 90% fav its all rubbish so mate please join me and stop giving them your money lifes to short enjoy.

This is my first day on here also .

Hope its another gamble free day for you my ninety day is on Sunday but taking 1 day at a time x

Hi Forrest

Thank you so much for your message! I am very pleased to report that I am still gamble free. I am at the end of my second day at work just 2 more days then I am on my days off. On my way hope this evening I stopped at the shop and treated myself to a bottle of wine instead of my usual £20 worth of scratch cards - daft as it sounds I was so pleased with myself.

Congratulations on your 90 days are you going to do something to celebrate? Xx

Hi Jane well done and yes you should be pleased with yourself...you are doing so well and each day is a winner not gambling....enjoy your wine its far cheaper than the other!!!.

ps....I wont be celebrating 90 days on sunday in a way I celebrate everyday I dont gamble life itself is a celebration without that evil in my life x

That's a really good way of thinking! Daft as it sounds I wanted to high five myself as I came out of the shop without buying any scratches xx

wendywoo wrote:

This is my first day on here also .

good on u

I did 5 months then my head went was gambling back now for 2 weeks lost a shed of money surprise surprise and back on here on day 2 back on the wagon I hate this fight all the time guys