I'm sick of this, every spare penny I have has been used on gambling for the past few years and I've completely ruined my life because of it.
I ruined my relationship with my partner and I put them through so much c**P because of my mood swings relating to gambling. We were meant to go on holiday and I gambled all our money away.Â
The amount I have gambled I could have put a deposit on a house by now and this thought cripples me with depression every day.Â
I have no friends and I'm behind on my bills because of gambling. I'm sick of this controlling and ruining my life, I need help.Â
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I suffer bad with anxiety and depression and I'm constantly over run with thoughts that I shouldn't be here because I have nothing anymore. All because of this awful thing.Â
Hi there sn,
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Firstly, take a deep breath....
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Welcome to the forum. It's a good place to start your journey. Things sounds very difficult at the minute but please remember they don't have to stay this way.
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You can claim your life back. First massive step has been made as you realised and hipefully accepted you have a problem. Now protect yourself with blocking software (Gamstop is a scheme you can join also which excludes you from all UK based online casinos). If you gamble in bookies - Go round and self exclude..hand finances over to someone you trust, keep yourself busy.
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It's not easy to fight this addiction but it is doable. Be honest to yourself and people around you. The gambling game is up isn't it...don't hurt yourself no more. We cannot win because we cannot STOP.
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There is a bright future to be had and you have a choice to go and get it. Support is out there. GA or counselling from this site which is free. There is also support for your partner which i believe can be beneficial.Â
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Help yourself now, it will be the best thing you could of done.
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One day at a time. Keep posting and sharing your journey with fellow recovering gamblers.
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Always remember - there is a rainbow after the rain. Things can and will improve if you set ypur mind and heart to it.
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Best wishes
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Hello Sweet,
It sounds like you're feeling stuck with your problems and experiencing negative feelings. Please call us on our freephone 0808 8020 133 for emotional support or if you'd like us to help you access free therapy locally or online. It is good that you're sharing peer support on the forum- having some extra support locally or online could be helpful too. Well done for reaching out for support and talking about your struggle. Our Helpline & Netlines are open every day 8am until midnight.
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