I scare myself its time to accept help :(.

Hey
Luke

Well done on 6 days. Just read through your posts. You dont seem to have put anything in place to help you get started on the road to recovery. Willpower alone has failed you many times before why risk depending on it this time?

Yep, echo the above! I am not particularly spiritual but I understand that you get comfort from your crystals. That is similar to the support that this site provides but it is not physical action to assist you with stopping! Get a blocker for whatever portal you are using so that you can continue to use the Internet for good purpose without it being a window to destruction!

I had a few of those dreams @ the start. Initially it was about the money but then I was gutted to think I had reset my counter...To be fair, the fleeting thought was a zillion times better than how I used to feel every morning after I'd gambled but they were still horrible none the less!

Stay strong today, it sounds like you have all 3 elements of the gambling triangle together, Time-Money-Location & you need to figure out how to remove one just until you are more comfortable with your recovery!

Stay strong & choose 'No' - ODAAT

I have banned myself the sites i use, i heard that K9 is pretty good? Is that for iphone?. You are correct in i have put nothing in place im feeling great although the odd temptation. What would you suggest on actions i could do to aid me?.

Im trying to find the things i used to enjoy and am finding answers in that alone, however i do know that willpower can fault us at times and i do not want to fall at a hurdle when i come to it. Today has been hard as 2 of my friends won £1200 on the football over the weekend that i would have betted on, regardless of that i told them not to speak to me about it in the future as i cannot have temptation from friends. I did think to myself what if but then i thought to myself what if it lost, its just not worth the risk and i dont want to get the bug again.

So this was a test that faced me today, payday and the fact my friends won money on a bet i would have placed. I do not feel sick for not betting i feel the opposite i feel great because i know they will lose that money at some point and i will not :-).

Thanks for your post day@atime

Sorry mate, my poison was not online so if you can't find an answer on one of the posts, you may need to put in a phonecall to Gamcare!

Well done for realising that today was a huge test & understanding that gamblers never win in the long run! Your attitude will stand you in good stead & I'm so glad you have excluded. Other actions are keeping busy & when the urges come fight them one second @ a time! Someone here suggested just standing & I get that! I tell myself just do this first, & then we can re-evaluate this need! Admittedly at the start, I had to just do a lot of things before the urges went away but now, it's so much easier & I can pretty much just tell them to P off! You should be very proud of how you are tackling this head on! I am sorry I couldn't help with the blockers!

Fortunately i never really used the bookies so i never got the social aspect of it either, i can imagine that is hard as there is many you walk past during a normal day.

Thanks for your motivating words i do feel like i achieved something today even as i sit and write this i can feel myself itching to gamble. But no i will not give in not this time :-D, in the past i never REALLY wanted to stop however this time i do and that is what is different this time round.

Recognised i had a real bad problem and now concentrating on diminishing those feelings, with positive thinking nothing is impossible but yes i WILL ring gamcare today once i get home as i do need some extra support put into place.

Thanks once again odaat for your kind and wisdom words 🙂