Idiot

It’s cause we have a problem and always think the big win is around the corner so we keep chasing it 

I think accepting the loss is the only thing you can do and move forward, the past is the past and you are clearly strong abstaining for 10 years, maybe after so long you thought could gamble in moderation, and having extra cash allowed you to do so, but unfortunately the addiction took over, as it does with so many of us, you are not an idiot, you are simply human

Thank you both

struggling with accepting the loss but taking the positives I never ever want to gamble again ever, even in the ten years of it I was very tempted and understand I may do in the future but I’ve never felt completely like I do today that I just don’t want to go back to it.

@ns0um6yprt i I think it takes a pivot moment for a gambler to realize the consequences of their actions, I gambled for years did things that were unthinkable and unforgivable to feed my habit, and the worse thing is I didn’t care, I think that’s what it does takes over all inhibitions it literally sucks the soul out of us it’s awful. I will never forgive myself but I’ve stopped thinking about the financial side, what’s gone is gone, can’t get it back, can’t take it with us, so it doesn’t really matter, you and your sanity matter, family if you have one. I think you will be just fine

Very tempted today but didn’t succumb.

its the money lost that’s eating me but I know if I go back I cannot ever win as I’m addicted and it’ll just go if I ever win anyway.

The weathers nice it’s been better not being stressed worrying about sport’s results.