Hi,
I have recently signed up to gam care. I will give you a little bit of info. I have had debt throughout my younger years. This came around when I was a student. Taking out overdrafts and credit cards etc. About a year ago I took out a consolidation loan of £5k to pay these off which I did. I then started gambling and had a few good wins. But unfortunately I got addicted and I ended up taking back out the debt I already had on top of my 5kloan. This continued.. my family were so disapointed. My partner has threatened to leave me if it wasn't the last time. Last week I done it again
Lost all my leftover money on online slots and my partner did leave me initially. He then spoke with my family and they all agreed that this time I need to seek help. He is back with me but o feel so guilty and anxious and depressed over the whole thing. I can't believe I let everyone down over and over again. Im so thankful my partner is sticking by my side but the guilt is so overwhelming. I almost broke him. I have arranged counselling through my work and have also arranged it through gamcare. I just want to know if these feelings of guilt anxiety and depression are normal and if I will put trust in people again? I'm so serious about it now. I've never admitted I had a problem or needed help until now.
I too became addicted to gambling and it progressed over many years. I self-excluded myself from numerous sites but there were always more I could sign up too. I consistently kidded myself by reducing limits and saying I was going to get myself in control. To absolutely no avail as I would get paid and within a week I would leave myself with very little to get by till the next paycheck came around. I would cry, beat myself up and the cycle would just continue. I think opening up to those closest to you is the first step and seeking the help you feel you need. Please do not let the guilt eat you up. Your not the only one that has been sucked in by the highs of gambling. I signed up to gamstop only recently and I can admit that I have tested it by tryinf to find a site I can gamble on to no avail. I highly recommend using it as a tool. It won't curb your impulses but it will stop you in your tracks. I wish you all the best in your recovery.
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