I've gambled over £2,000 away. I'm only 18.

Hello, under normal circumstances I would say "my name is....," however, I would rather keep myself anonymous.

I turned 18 in November last year, and with that, I started gambling online. Suddenly, I was able to bet on the football I like, and as I didn't have a job, I was hoping to double the £2,000 I was initially given by my family.

It was all I could think about. I often placed bets as soon as I woke up, and before I fell asleep. The highs were great. But the lows, the lows were so hard to deal with. I still struggle, as my life has been completely low recently. Overall, I had won over £8,000 on my account, just to have gambled away all of it. 

I had excluded myself in January from one app, however, I created a new account with another soon afterwards. In the time since having my other account, I have gambled away just over £2,000.

My family don't know that I have gambled away all my money, and I feel ill every time they mention that 'you're loaded,' or 'you have so much money, spend your own'. It's not like I wouldn't spend my own money myself, but now, I simply can't.

I had a job in a call centre recently, but the pressure got to me and the pay was poor so I left after two weeks. That was my first job, and I haven't had one since. 

My college course is starting again soon, however, I have qualified for a bursary worth less than last year's, which I also managed to gamble away. 

I excluded myself from all UK gambling apps recently, and while I feel better for doing that, I am still extremely depressed.

Any advice, kind words or help would be appreciated. I am still jobseeking also.