Need to start taking responsibility

Hi,

 I am new here, I signed up about 6 weeks ago and have been lurking for a while because I know I really need to stop gambling for good , have been working up the courage to properly step away from gambling and am just off the back of a weekend where I lost 2k (started on a nice win then started chasing- always the same pattern with me) 

 I really need to stop burying my head in the sand and acknowledge that a) I have a problem and b) it’s time to stop .

I have only really been a gambler for the last 6 years, playing on online slots. I have previously stopped, and I know that I am much calmer and less stressed when I am not gambling- I don’t know why I then end up gambling again because I know it’s going to make me feel awful! 

Last year I went for 6 months -I ended up getting sucked back in because I made the mistake of thinking I could just play a little for fun - now I am an extra 6k in debt and definitely need to face up to the fact that I cannot play for fun - gambling is always going to a problem for me. 

So this day 0 for me - and looking forward to day 1 being gamble free tomorrow.