Good day everyone. This is my Day 1. I'm a life long compulsive gambler. I don't even know where to start, I'm so disgusted and disillusioned with myself. And shocked at how much the addiction took a hold of me and how much it controlled me.
It's gotten really bad now. I'm sure you all know those 20 "test" questions trying to establish whether one is a compulsive gambler or not. I used to joke that they make it way to easy to qualify. Anyway, I would always answer 19 questions with yes and the "suicide thoughts" question with no.
That changed recently as suicide did cross my mind. I'm not saying I'm contemplating it daily, it just popped up as an option in my mind. That's how bad things are, I guess.
I wish you all a wonderful addiction-free day.
Dear Navico,
Thank you for using our forum. Sharing is always a great step and especially as you have been experiencing some suicidal thoughts. We support many others who feel this way. We hope you continue to get support for yourself.
Best wishes
Fiona
Forum Admin
Dear Navico,
Thank you for using our forum. Sharing is always a great step and especially as you have been experiencing some suicidal thoughts. We support many others who feel this way. We hope you continue to get support for yourself.
Best wishes
Fiona
Forum Admin
First ever post on a forum, struggled with gambling since my teens and now I’m near 40. Don’t think I’m going to say anything on here that hasn’t been said before, my gambling has a hold on me and it’s like nothing else gets any thought and my mind is totally obsessed with it. The real irony for me now is that I don’t care if I win or lose and I know that’s sounds stupid but I just feel completely numb to all of it. I joined GameStop but found other sites that can be played on and these are a compulsive gambler’s nightmare, there is literally no protection on these sites (no deposit limits). I just feel no enjoyment out of life anymore and feel gambling has destroyed me. Sitting at near 40 debt up to my eyeballs and am not in control of my life as gambling will not leave my mind alone.
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