I have registered with GAM-Stop today because it is just unbearable. It gave me 3 chances to get out, I even withdrew but decided to leave 50. Later, chasing that 50 made me cancel the withdrawal and it was the same story from there. It has made me so frustrated. I do not need to do this.
I have ruined myself and I need to rebuild. While acting all normal at work, I am killing myself in my mind in ways unimaginable.
Hi Tornsoldier
Just been reading through some of your posts from 14-2-2018. you seemed to want to continue gambling back then. I guess you did not put the blocks in place and hand over financial control to your wife. Have you been losing big sums the last few months.
Why don't you forget the lost money and stop chasing, its gone. Hand over all your cards and cash to your partner to avoid temptation. You obviously do not have the willpower to beat it alone. No shame in that, neither did I. I lost huge sums on those roulette machines, I speak from experience. Walking out of the bookies feeling sick, the staff staring at me as I left, cos they knew I just lost thousands in a machine, they were thinking I was a mug and they were right. Then I would chase my losses another day and sink even further into debt. There is no way to beat these machines, or any form of gambling, the house always has the edge.
I quit roulette machines 6 months ago, may not seem much, but to me its a huge step. In that time I have I have saved over £10,000. I do not say this to gloat, I am showing you how things can improve very quickly when you stop gambling. Finally I have savings.
I know it is not easy but accept the losses and move forward, thinking about it will torture you. The sleepless nights, the lying, covering your tracks, it's a terrible way to live. You can only rebuild with a proper plan in place.
Hey Greensoldier,
Yes! I have relapsed twice since joining. Considering to previous losses, they were not big but still equally sickening as they were big from where I am today. I have had it enough. I have installed the block and I am not going back there again. At the moment, looking for evening jobs if I can find one.
Congrats to you and keep up your abstinence. I was quite a saver until all this happened and now I struggle to have patience because I know what i have lost and how fast I have lost it.
Trying again now.
I understand, you work hard for months/years and build up your savings, then it gets wiped out in a day. Then you chase your losses as it is so hard to accept the money is gone. I admit that I have restricted access to cash and am accountable for what I spend.
Although I do wonder if I would have relapsed, if I had access to cash. You may have relapsed but you are still fighting and learning.
All the best
Its very strange after I have registered for gamstop, I have received an email today to be an exclusive member of the loyality club. Anyway, yes, its knowing what i have lost and how i have lost kills me everyday and i am constantly thinking of ways to refill my pot. But, I need to do it the correct way.
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