Hello I am not new here - had an account for a while. And after doing pretty good I fell of the wagon big time. I hate this cycle. Lost my brother and father the past 2 months and this sent me down a dark hole. Im sat here now back in debt - with little or nothing left. im not young so feel so tired of fighting this addiction for so long. I was doing well last year - and the start of this year. Am on gamstop which really helped. but then as all addicts do I found a way around this by looking for sites offshore cyrptos etc i wont give details as dont want to trigger anyone. But these sites really are without any safety net at all.
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Today installed gamban - i feel that all too familiar very draining sick feeling wondering where i go from here. And right now I am out of answers. I feel very very defeated and very very stupid. dont even know what im writing here but its the only place i can go. This is a very lonely addiction.
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Hi if ur the deeno I think u are ? U were a big part of this forum for a while.
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Welcome back.
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Sorry to hear it's under bad circumstances that ur back..... Very sorry for ur loss....
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Let's get u back up and running.
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All the best AdamÂ
@adam123 hi Adam yes one n same. Was doing good the past few years thought I had kicked it. Rebuilt then somehow hit a brick wall the past few months. I'm older now ...not as much energy ....I should really know better. I hope you are well cheersÂ
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@adam123 hi Adam yes one n same. Was doing good the past few years thought I had kicked it. Rebuilt then somehow hit a brick wall the past few months. I'm older now ...not as much energy ....I should really know better. I hope you are well cheersÂ
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Hi @deeno
So sorry for your loss. Can't imagine how hard it's been for you.Â
You have a lot of friends on here, old and new, who will be here for you and help you get back on track.Â
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@jess27 Thank you Jess and yes I am going to read through the archives. But im taking or trying to take responsibility yet again. No point in me feeling sorry for myself. I need to really face this whole issue head on. I have done it in the past I feel I can do it again. Being in grief can be no excuse - but as an addict I/ we can look for an excuse to act upon this addition - which always lurks around. I wont even call it day 1 or day whatever any more - no point. Its either stop or end up in a hole that I never get out of. Gambling addiction is so self consuming and selfish. I do wish you well.
@demo yes you've abstained before and I'm sure you can do it again. Too true that this addiction is always lurking. Wishing you all the best.Â
Hi @deeno
So sorry for your loss. Can't imagine how hard it's been for you.Â
You have a lot of friends on here, old and new, who will be here for you and help you get back on track.Â
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Hi Deano,
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Sorry for your loss, & welcome back. You say you're not young I was 63 when I turned up here in 2018, I'll be 67 next month so I ain't that young either. All I know is that I'm happier today than I've ever been in my adult life since I stopped. You've stopped before & you can do it again. Trust me it's never too late.
Best Wishes
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Deeno not Deano sorry!!!
@slowlearner Yes your right never too late I suppose - but should have learned my lesson 15 years ago. You have done really good -) may it long continue!
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