Dont know were to start! Have been a member of this site for a while but foolishly stoped logging in and checking into the chatrooms! Thought i had solved my problem by myself. How wrong was i! Had convinced myself that the big bets would stop and i could even start betting small stakes football coupons again. Well as it goes one thing leads to another and im back in the hole i had told myself i would never be back in im so ashamed of myself! My loggin would have been over 300 days gf aswell time to start from 0 again and hopefully learn from this relapse
Hi Mmc,
Well done on coming on here and opening up, it would’ve been a lot easier not to have done, but it really does make a difference sharing. The good and the bad.
Your post certainly resonated with me. Years ago I kept GF for many months, possibly over a year. Like you, I thought I had it under control and could switch it on and off like a tap. A small gamble here, win a bit and bank it. Good idea in principle, rubbish one in reality...
What I subsequently discovered, through cold hard experience, is that for us true CGs, the only way is giving up gambling for life. Acceptance takes time but once you have that you’re over half the way there already.
Willpower alone is not enough, we need as much support and as many blocks as possible. Only when that is in place can we give giving up a proper shot.
Best of luck!
Hi,
Finally made it here after 20 odd years of gambling it's now time to stop for me and I understand this now, after years of hiding myself from while I have not lost everything I have very little to show for many years of working
It's now time to enjoy my life and life a normal life without feeling I have a big secret to hide
Thank you for yor comment ukds69.today will be 1 day gamble free and i go again!
You are right will power alone isn't enough i have just signed up with gamestop and going round to selfexclude from my local bookmakers.this relapse WILL make me stronger and relise that as a CB i cant go back to that life, first target is from today until christmas to go GF!!
Good luck Mmc. There are thousands, tens of thousands, hundreds of thousands of CGs, myself included, who have been where you are now, back to 'day one'. This is my 'lost count of' day one and as usual I am determined it will be my last, but this time I really think I can do it. I am only addicted to online slot sites and having excluded myself a number of times over the years I am finding it harder and harder to join new sites because they are operated by the same companies that I have already excluded myself from. This helps. But the real reason is that this time I have joined Gamcare and I have a sneaky feeling that this will really help. It is cathartic to be able to share your experience and uplifting to read about other addicts struggles and successes. Here's to success for both of us and all those other people trying to break the cycle of addiction.
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