Glad to be on here tonight and not looking at sporting life or flashscore checking football results.
I have been gambling,stealing and struggling with life for a long time now.I started gambling with 50p on the grand national when I was only 12.My dad had an interest in horses but his dad was an addict.My gamgling at the beginning was conservative and I only gambled what I could afford.I guess the first real big win gives you that high and you think gambling is easy.I was always sporty and have competed for my country many times but gambling has affected me from achieving alot more.I remember stealing money for the first time from my sisters purse and going to the bookmakers before training.I ended up missing training loosing her money.My first big loss I was working during a summer camp and got 100pound for the week.I would give my mum 20pound from this but I decided to gamble it all away.i couldn't face my mum so I made up that I was mugged and got my passport and money stolen.I had thrown the passport away to make it more convincing.The gardai knew I was lying and I was lucky to get away.I am try to think of memories of my gambling and being a typical gambler I can only remember the good ones.I tend to put the bad ones to the back of my mind.Two years ago my family checked me into a clinic called the Rutland and I found this ok but I continued to tell lies during my course.
Currently I run my own business but have had some big blips over the last few years.I have three kids now and I want to be a good role model for them.
hi dublin 29
just wanted to say hey im half irish and been affected by gambling severly last few weeks , i have another week to pay day and its been really hard , why i put , us put ourselves through it i never know , like u i think its skipped a generation my granny of my mum lost her pub in ireland on game of poker and im now a dad and things can and prob will get a lot worse unless we learn to walk away , stop it focus on other lesuire persuits , they there to make money not give it away , just plays with your f******** head , and chassing loses and next win messes with ur brain , and if u cant control ur brain then off coure we gonna do mad things
stay in touch , what sport u represent ireland for ? joe
Hi
Your writing my story Pal. Down to being a role model for my kids. Lets not look for big successes lets try get through today without a bet and see where it takes us. We have a tread on overcoming gambling which we hope gets us to the New Year and beyond your welcome to join.
Michael and Spraggy thanks for the messages.I will go into my story a little more,really find it hard to remember so many bad moments it's like I have pushed them to the back of my head.I had a GA meeting tonight and found it really helpfull.
The missus is not talking to me much but can't blame her as I had a relapse gambled last Tuesday night.Today is day two and I was gamble free.I didn't give gambling much thought today,staying away from watching sports as my mind thinks over/under 2.5 goals and who will score next.The sport I do id rather not say as Id be afraid someone would come on here and find out who I was.The thing about gambling is you don't hear many people in recovery for long periods(eg 10 years away) come out and talk about it.The bookmakers open till 9/9.30 pm is a f#cking joke.Im trying to work my way around this site and hopefully hit the chat room in a few days when I get a chance.
Day 3 and gamble free but today was tough.I had money I owed my mate and should have left in work but took it home with me.I thought about checking my phone to look up the evening racing but decided against it(good decision)
Spent the evening with my daughter,still in the dog house with the missus.
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