Payday should be happy day right? For me it meant I could get my hands on the funds I needed to gamble  more. Today I got paid for a little job that I did. It was £100! Feeling proud that I still have £100 at the end of the day.I have thought about gambling. My brain telling me go on just a little bit won’t harm. But I have resisted. I have self excluded from  sites so even if the temptation got the better of me I won’t be able to. It’s still early days for me, but feeling motivated to be in control and get my life back! I just keep repeating to myself ‘if you gamble you will loose’ if not today then tomorrow or the next…Â
Keep going mate! We have all been in this position before hence why on this site! I am now 19months clear and to be honest I think about it now and again, like you said when I have a bit more cash disposable or when I drive past a bookies etc. but now I see it in a different way, I have nothing to hide or lie about. My only secrets now are taking the kids for a cheeky McDonald’s instead of cooking for them! My world nearly ended in 2019 when I was caught, but it was for the best. I have now built a better relationship with my partner and am more focused in life. You will get there. Just get through these early days and yes it will take everything you’ve got. Put all the blocks in place and that will stop you. Once you get further down the line it’s a lot easier. I downloaded an app that reminds me everyday at 8.30 that I am another day on. It’s great cause it’s a constant reminder to push on. Keep going honestly it’s so worth it. Spend your money on other things!Â
all the bestÂ
I get the feeling of being successful after having all my money left after the first day knowing that the next could be much different. I got paid extra 2 days ago for overtime that I had taken to build up money I have lost in the past. I went to bed feeling great knowing I had it all there.
Here I am, 4:15am 2 days later with next to nothing in my account.Â
I know the feeling, I’m so proud of the steps you’ve taken to progress.
I can’t escape.
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