Hello. I'm back for a bit of support really trying to kick a habit I have again succumbed to.
I first came on for advice in 2015 and on the back of some top advice I completely turned my life around, from being 20k in debt to self excluding, building my life piece by piece. I eventually left my Job to go self employed such was my confidence with money and handling my usual triggers (triangle problem to come up)......
I now run a successful business employing 8 people and turning over around 20k a week, with that comes huge responsibility in terms of wages, overheads and running costs.
Up until a month ago I have managed to keep myself busy but found through boredom in the daytime (there can be a few hours I have pockets of time)I am gambling, slowly getting worse until it came to a head today. I have been gambling (new staff dont remember my self exclusion over two years ago) around ВЈ3-400 a time on FOBTS, the money is kind of irrelevant so I don't know why I do it, I don't lose enough to really hurt but know in my heart i'll never win enough to walk, today I gave them ВЈ1000.00.....which hurt. This week £2,000.... It's Wednesday.
I'm at a loss of what to do, where to turn, who to ask for help. I'm no longer seen as a "lads lad" I'm now the boss of a company with huge responsibility. It's vital I have access to funds at all times for work, I feel I'm in so deep and struggling to deal with the sheer joy I get out of playing these machines..... Until now.
I'm signing up as a newbie and any help really would be appreciated. I don't know if i have it in me to self exclude again......older and more pig headed I guess, really feeling the pain of what I'm doing tonight.
I know you 🙂
WOW, good on you for turning things around 🙂
BUT, bah to getting back on the road to hell 🙁
Given the struggle you had getting your self exclusions in place before you probably ain’t gonna like what I’m gonna say but there’s no longevity in a few sessions of counselling so you need to look @ longer term solutions such as further professional support or groups like GA.
What you may be relieved to hear, you don’t need to pull on your dark glasses & hat to exclude without any of your pals noticing anymore, you can do it via a helpline: MOSES 0800 294 2060
If you’re really genuinely bored during the day, you may need to consider laying staff off because the devil makes work for idle hands. Older & more pig headed maybe but more to lose now than you already have lost & there is a better way. We can’t play for fun, it’s just going to destroy you!
You’ve done it before, you can turn it round again & I’m off now to buy shares in Twix 😉
Call GamCare for more counselling, keep your hand in here, just get off this slope you are back on - ODAAT
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