I long to have freedom from those freehand just live like a normal person even though I know I'm not..making this forum my new addiction and finding it really helpful so apologies for lots of posts it helps putting it down and realising what ive done
Checking in today, 107 days GF
Busy week for me with work and then family problems so apologies for my lack of administration, I will get the front page updated on Friday morning. Hope everyones going strong!
Checking in, into the 5 month and still going strong.
Scott
Front page is updated, welcome to the challenge paulcorn, I hope this helps you on your journey. 28 check ins missing, come on troops lets be having you!
Checking in on day 59 , still gamble free have been tempted a few times but have managed to stay strong.
Instead of waiting til Sunday to post check in's why not try and do your check in by the Friday?
Would make it a lot easier on Bornagain. Don't we want to help him out?
Hi Phil,
Checking in on day 40 Gamble Free. It has been tough so far but I'm getting there slowly but surely. Well done to everyone along the way.
Scott.
What a great thread, Phil. How have I missed this. Can I come in?
Checking in on day 19 GF.
Paulcorn, majid miah I can fully relate in everyday life I am a sociable person have started two businesses, rationale and most importantly in control.
But gambling has been a completely different entity, I become destructive, didnt have any real Sense of money, I was literally out of control, as a keen sportsman I enjoyed the thrill of the chase, me against the bookies or casino.
How can I be so rationale in one sense and so destructive in another? Through councilling through gamcare I have come to understand myself better , remove the element of choice, I am on the early roads to recovery but I would advise you seek help, the only person who can change you is you and you need the will to keep fighting the battle to.remain gamble free.
You are not alone, I have lost over 120k over 15 years, I would be very rich if I hadn't, but it's about accepting those losses and moving on, let's change the future not dwell on the past.
Checking in on 25 days gamble free.
Have had a good week and an uplifting GA meeting.
Have no access to cash which makes it so much easier.
Have a good week everyone and best wishes
Checking in on day 135.
Checking in day 140. Will be having MRI scans next week after agreeing to take part in tests for a new drug that is being trialled to control the Gambling cravings. Had an initial test last week and took some IQ and profiling questionnaires. I've then been given pills for the next few days which may be placebo, or may be drug (Naltrexone). Will then MRI scan me and ask me to perform certain tests which involve an element of gambling. I'll then go through the same process in a few weeks once again with placebo or drug.I'm sceptical of using a drug to control something where the addiction is not of an induced nature (alcohol / drugs), but I'm open minded and if this helps others than can only be a good thing.
Everyone is different, but for me being open, honest and talking to those close to me is the best way to combat this illness. These forums, GA, listening and absorbing as much guidance those who manage to abstain are the best tools I have found.
For the new, existing and Soilders celebrating milestones I wish you all the best.
Best Regards
Hi Dazz yes accepting the losses is key to me moving forward and staying free of gambling this time for ever.
Hello soldiers!!
An extremely weary Mr B checking in from DisneyWorld! Not long arrived and unpacked - now sitting making sure that I'm logged in for this week!! An early start tomorrow - Chef Mickeys and a visit to the Magic Kingdom. None of this would have been possible if gambling featured in my life - this is my reward for a long period of abstinence. The look on my daughters face tomorrow when she walks up Main Street USA and sees Cinderella's Castle for the first time will make every second of pain worth it!
Phil - just in case I can't get checked in, I'm away until Saturday 30th May - can you keep me right? Thanks mate.
Keep strong everyone!
Mr B x
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