Hello,
I posted on here some months ago explaining how I had got 20k into debt in a very short space of time due to online roulette....well it got worse before it got better ....and I now owe in the region of 30k.
I explained at the time and is still something I struggle with is the amount of money I now owe is frightening and definitely a driving factor in me gambling was to try and get that debt down which is stupid in itself. Despite earning good money and I can afford payments for screw ups, it is so sad to see hundreds of pounds (around 600) of dead money leaving my account to pay loans and credit cards and is going to take yrs to pay back for what essentially took me weeks to amass.
The last time I gambled, with a view to trying to get back some of my losses I managed to win 9000 total, but on that session I was around 3000 up - which meant I had spent out 6000 ...which is a ridiculous amount of money to lose, surreal ...who can afford to lose that?! Anyway, I logged out of the site and collected the money and received 2 or 3 calls from the site which I had registered with on the same day congratulating me on my success and explaining my 'status' is now 'GOLD' oooohhhhh, exciting (NOT) ...I didn't care, I wanted my money and to forget this nightmare ....on the final call they said 'congrats again as you have earned loyalty points which meant I had 35 to spend (not much for 6k ay) ..anyway ..I knew what they were doing and was of course too clever to log back in and lose that .........wasn't I ??!!!!!
I left the house to see a mate who owed me about 50 and I was buzzing from my win, how the world looked like a better place right now, the sun was shining, money in the bank ...life was gooooood.
I collected the 50 and thought, lets go to the bookies and have a bit of fun which as a compulsive gambler is of course a bad idea, but you tell yourself you can stop if (when) you lose ...which of course you can't. I lost said 50 and was quite annoyed about this ....oddly because when I was winning online my bets were around 150 and I lost quite a few on the bounce ....anyway, I got home and thought ....I will log back on use the 35 and then leave it if I lose ....which of course I did lose, but didn't log out instead I reversed some of my withdrawal to cover that ...and some more ....and some more .....and you know what's coming folks - I lost the frikkin lot, 9k 6k of which was mine or my credit cards anyway. You may ask yourself 'how on earth, could you not see it coming' - I ask the same things myself, but at the time you are hoping on hope your luck will change, but it doesn't and as you see the amount you have in credit getting smaller and smaller and you realise it is only a matter of time and there you go.........so I do not think I could have felt lower. I remember immediately after the last losing click of that mouse lying on the floor with my head in my hands face down in utter disbelief at what I had just done, I just didnt' know what to do. At that point I didn't consider trying to get more money to try again as I had just lost 9k ......I - I had to tell my wife AGAINNNNNNNNNNNN how I had really messed up, just awful, awful time in my life and I imagined those people who called me from the gambling site to congratulate me would have known what they were doing and their strategy worked like a charm, they got their money back and all mine and had images of them shaking hands and patting each other on the back for a job well done (this likely didn't happen of course) but I am sure they realised what had happened ...SOOO Angry.
So decided, that is it - 30k is more than enough of an eye opener< clearly no amount of money is going to be enough for e, be it 3000 or 300,000 ....I would find a way to lose it.
So, it has been 98 days since I gambled, I honestly don't find it hard to not gamble day after day, I think I was more addicted to the vast amounts of money you could win, but of course got a tremendous buzz from it so I am by now way out of the woods.
I have made it virtually impossible for me to gamble in so much as my missis has my debit cards and I consolidated the debt into one loan ..and closed out my credit cards - so if the idea popped into my head to go and have a go or pop to the bookies ...I can't and also try and push the thoughts out of my head anyway and they will go ....i now enjoy time with my 2 young children and don't want to be doing something else or thinking about how I can get some money back ......yes I owe a lot of money, but if I had continued, the way i was going ...this could now be an amount I daren't think about.
Sorry for long ramble, but thought I would provide an update on my situ ...it can be done if you want it hard enough.
Good luck
Hi ck 2003,
Your story is very inspiring to myself.
1- because roulette was my downfall for the last 8 years. Online.. in the bookies... in the casino.
2- i have experienced that exact same feeling of losing every penny over and over again. Not to the same amount as you the most i have lost in one sitting is 1k. The sum is irrelevant though as once a man gets down to his last tena its the same.
3- I am also in debt due to gambling around 5k. But the losses accumulate to probably 4 times that if you count what my disposable income has gone on in that time aswell.
I am currently 17 days since i lost that 1k and to hear from someone as yourself who is at 98 days gives me confidence i can plod on and get through this.
Thanks so much for posting. I wish you all the best in your gamble free life.
J x
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Thanks for sharing. I'm feeling down because of a very recent slip and found your tale inspiring. I've been through similar in the past so it really struck a chord. I'm so pleased for your recovery. You're doing great, well done!
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