I'm struggling, life, gambling, depression, who knows, but every time my life feels like it's spiralling I fall back to what feels like my only friend. The highs are amazing, the excitement, and exhilaration, that feeling that everything is getting better. Then it hits, you lose and keep chasing.
Hello Endo1993 and welcome to the Forum.
I am sorry to hear you are going through such a struggle. Trying to deal with problem gambling on your own is not usually effective. From the way you describe it, it sounds like you look for an escape in gambling from difficult feelings but you end up in a worse situation every time.
We do provide counselling sessions that could help you with your recovery. You may call the Helpline or connect to an advisor on the Netline who could discuss with you your options and offer practical advice on how to help yourself through this. Also, if you are concerned about your finances, there are agencies that provide free and confidential advice.
Best wishes,
Ana
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Hi,
You have gambled before and stopped for some serious periods of time which my friend you are going to have to do again.
I studied your post and read it a couple of times. I am no expert and my non gambling tally is 6 months without a single relapse.
The anger and despair you show is linked with guilt as to what you have done. You say my wife is not supportive and a "friend" is. You might need to reverse that.
Give Gamcare a call. Surely it can only help. You are at your rock bottom now and you must embrace recovery and embrace it fully. You can do it as you have done it in the past.
Everything is not going to dissappear cause you gambled again.
Sorry if I sound harsh but you have been in recovery before and may now need to look at serious issues you have which means you want to gamble periodically.
Think of your girls.
Best wishes.
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