I get my salary paid in early in December. So my rent along with everything else sits there a lot longer than the usual 24 hours. I’ve been here before around Christmas because this always f***s me.
I staked my rent last week and it paid off. Cashed out and spoilt everyone for Christmas. Not only did I have enough to put my rent back and spoil family but I had extra money over Christmas it was great.
Yesterday as we all whined down from the day there was a voice in my head telling me “you can do that again easy” and once it’s put it my head it’s so hard to ignore it.
I have Gamban, and I’m on Gamstop and have all the blocks in place on my debit cards etc.
I actually emailed the site telling them I’ve been in recovery for gambling for some time and I’d like them to block my account before I bury myself into a hole I can’t get out of. They did so immediately to be fair to them, that was the day before Christmas Eve when it felt like I was spending too much of the profit I just made.
Anyway last night I’ve lost my rent and my other bills, now I’m so devastated. I can’t tell anyone either through fear of what they’ll say or think. I’ve emailed my estate agents telling them I’m gonna be unable to pay my rent on the 1st and I’ll have to arrange a plan with them to sort it out.
It’s horrendous the rollercoaster gambling takes you on. With your heart in your throat the entire time. Even when it pays off they always get it back off me one way or another.
Just feeling really low this afternoon and don’t feel like I can talk to anyone about it so have decided to share it on here.
Thanks for reading guys. All the best
Calvin
The only way is not to do it if u win u lose later if u lose u chase, infact 99.9 will lose even if u won life changing money the addiction takes over and their no concept of money, work on your recovery mate if u didnt lose it now it will take it off u eventually, if someone offered me a million we would all take it thats how gambling keeps people in the loophole
Hi. Same with me. I'll never forget this Christmas as I relapsed and spent my whole wage on Christmas eve leaving no money for bills until end of Jan.
Tip- try and chargeback through your bank
@elzy92 What’s charge back?. Surly I can’t get my bank to give me my money back for those transactions?. I knew what I was doing when I deposited the money and I would have taken any big wins that could have come from it?. I don’t understand what basis I could have to get that money charged back?
An all too familiar story I've experienced many times in the past. This month marked 365 day without gambling, in all honesty the first 3 months were very difficult to stop thinking about it, however when you break through the 60-90 days the urg starts to dampen. All the best for 2024 and your recovery
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