Hi all struggling at the moment. Keep playing the slots, going on my own in the day when I have free time. Win.Then put it all back. Then get more money out to chase what I'd lost then won, then lost again. I've tried everything. I've had the help from the professionals and it still doesn't stop me. Though it did help. My gambling losses are alot now and it keeps leading me back .I've put the stops in place and my partner looks after my cards and money but I've pestered so much for money back to play with so many timesThey've ended up giving in as they are so worn down with it. Or I've found my cards several times. I've tried GA but it didn't work for me.
I still went back to playing slots and worse than before. I know I need to stop. But there's a reluctance to stop because I'm convinced I'm going to get my money back and keep coming up with different plans to try this and try that. I can't bear the thought of the hope being taken away of not getting any of my savings back. When I'm not gambling I watch the streamers. I know it doesn't help but I love to watch. Today £650 gone. 2 days ago my wages gone. Money I've borrowed in thr last week gone.I can't face stopping altogether because then I'll never get my life savings back. But I can't win either because I'm a compulsive gambler. I desperately want to be a different person when I play and every time I say I'll walk away when I win. I've tried everything. And I don't. I can't do it.
I can't seem to stop or want to stop but I know I need to. It's a crazy cycle I'm in. I don't know how people do it. How do you come to the place where you want to stop? How do you switch your brain to break the cycle?
Financially I'm at rock bottom so you would think that would stop me.
"I know I need to stop. But there's a reluctance to stop because I'm convinced I'm going to get my money back and keep coming up with different plans to try this and try that. I can't bear the thought of the hope being taken away of not getting any of my savings back."
This part of your post really resonated with me I was in the exact same train of thought for over two years I was so scared to have that hope snatched away but it's mind trickery and mind chatter but like you it was the biggest hurdle to get over . I decided to let go of that hope because it's a vicious cycle. Instead I have a completely new hope of being free of this nightmare . Acceptence has replaced the (hope )mind chatter. I have cut my losses and my savings are starting to grow slowly I would recommend Gamstop as a great start. One of the best things since I've stopped is the peaceful feeling I have instead of the mind chatter and the false hope I had to prove that to myself losing everything I had twice over had I done Gamstop 7 months ago I would still have my savings . I wish you healing and success
Thank you @MaryK.
It's like hitting my head against a brick wall. I know the only way out is to stop and I've got to try and get to the point where I accept the money is gone and try to move forward in my life. Thank you for your wise words. The mind does play tricks and it doesn't take much to break the willpower down if I think I'm going to re coup some losses (i know deep down ill never get the money back). I've started with being honest with my partner and telling them not to give into me asking for some of my money, to hide the cards better.So I can't F**g them. I feel like cutting the cards up to be honest but I would still find a way around it.....
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