Carring so much guilt

Hi Lucy if your poison is on line gambling maybe a gam blocker could help you. TXnogam is about £20 Google it and it will block you from on line sites. For me it’s the only way I've been able to get a bit of space to help rebuild my life. Like you I’ve stopped and started and gone through the misery and humiliation of having to ask for help countless times. Thoughts of suicide have been and were a common experience. I lost my home and the ability to see my children. Thankfully today my life is coming back on track and I have a chance to rebuild and have a future. However, for me I just take it a day at a time and try to get through the 24 hours ahead of me without gambling. Tomorrow will sort itself out so long as I get through today. TXnogam reading posts and reaching out to others is how I’m managing to get through the day gambling free.

Take care

Hi Lucy,

Congrats on admitting your problem and telling your partner. You should be really proud of yourself already. Each day is a milestone and you really can gain strength from the members on this site.. Always know that there are people her who understand exactly what you are going through.

For inspiration, please do read the massive thread under Mr Brightside 2014 challenge where we are all clubbed together and urging each other on. Also, do feel free to join as I'm sure it would help you.

Above all, please try not to beat yourself up and take pride in the fact that you have taken some action. You will of course get urges, but please come on here instead.

I have noticed there are more and more women joining, so let's fight this together.

Louise

Thankyou ! I know I feel slightly better today but I still feel upset about the situation!! I haven't admitted my problem to my family, they think that this is other debt iv accumulated !! I'm more worried the bank will tell my family what iv been doing when I was gambling as I'm worried they will ask where I got the money to pay my debts, I say my dad and then they tell my dad that gambling is the reason I'm in debt ! this is the worst thing I an desperate to get control of this before my family find out xx

I don't think the bank is allowed to discuss your accounts or spending habits with anyone else.

Well this is day 3 and I feel better already ! I just need to keep going, I have had no urges, probley because I'm discusted in what's happened ! Thanks for all your support guys

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Lucy, stopping gambling is a hard thing to do. Getting money is usually the easy thing to do. Its stopping gambling that is hard. I'm convinced that the only way to stop is go cold turkey. And say no more. You have to know in your heart that you cant do it anymore. Thats where i'm at in my life. I'm trying hard to find a pass time that will occupy my life beside gambling. I dont know if that will work for you but maybe you can try. Good luck and stay in touch with Gamcare for sure. They are here to help. Disco

thanks guys! its much appreciated, its been a week tomorrow, and iv had one blip, of ten pound, which isnt too bad! even that in its self is an achievement ! onwards and upwards 🙂